I just published a prose poem on the fire element. Please read.
Fire introduced himself as the fuel for survival and a slow killer. I thought thinking of his slow burns made my teeth chatter not realizing the cold surrounding was the chill of fear. I admired his trickster ways and wanted to learn from him, while I hid in the cold without knowing why.
When we met, I learned he and I were bipolar. The closer you get, the more you realize our true power. That scares people. Hell, it scared me. I was so afraid, I feared everything I touched when he proudly burned inside me, the purification singeing away the conditioning that convinced me he wasn’t safe. I wasn’t sure if this conditioning was my fault or if my psyche was programmed to never know the word “bravery”, but only saw its definition when he burned brightly in other souls and I obeyed my conditioning to see him as a sin I should never touch.
I felt it too. There’s a balance in play right now to make it so the light and dark are not only balanced, but also cooperating. We’ve neglected the cycle of life, death, and rebirth for too long now. We won’t let certain traditions die and let new things grow. We won’t give innovation and change a chance because we’re told it’s a terrifying process that no one is strong enough to handle. You can’t “love and light” your way out of this change. Love is in darkness too; a nurturing love that sees your truest, rawest self and takes in every iota of who you are with acceptance. Your inner truth is in the darkness; your deepest secrets are in the darkness; your greatest passions are in the darkness. Your nature started in the dark, in the womb, and when you were fully grown you were born. As you live now, you’re going through cycles of being born and reborn in different ways, but we’re encouraged to shame the times of needed rest or letting go of something that no longer serves us. Change and the unknown can be frightening, but exploring the unknown, the mysteries that dominate in the dark, is necessary and healing.
The energy we’re feeling right now exists to encourage intuition and self-trust. The darkness eclipsing the full moon is the perfect visual example of the light of the full moon resonating while navigating in the dark. Although this lunar eclipse was partial, it must’ve still been a beautiful thing to witness. Now we can identify with it. You have the power to get through your own darkness and the darkness surrounding. The darkness isn’t an “evil” thing that you should be ashamed of. Darkness and light become evil if one chooses to make it so. Your shadow is who you are and understanding ALL of who you are is what allows you to be free. That’s when you’ll shine.
That may sound paradoxical because The Dark Goddess often is…
I’ve been studying Earth’s associations in life for a long while. Many sources had similar answers so eventually I decided to describe what Earth represented in my own way. I think what I loved most about writing this was being focused on life and death; those two things are truly tangible, inevitable truths all of us witness and will experience. She is our first and last teacher.
Earth is home. Home is where reality takes shape, where we start planting our roots. We start out as saplings looking up to the full-grown trees who are familiar with Earth and her nurturing ways. They seem proud of how far they’ve come. They seem invincible, so we believe them when they tell us that we will grow higher than they have, that we’re destined to be even closer to the sun.
Then we learn about how stressful growth is. Our sapling form starts protruding from the soil; our roots are deeper, but also farther away. We go through these strange phases, learning what to do with our new branches, leaves, petals, fruit, whatever you may see yourself blossoming. It’s a strange time, and it gets stranger when you see the other saplings growing differently. It leaves you curious, maybe terrified, but you’ll inevitably compare and contrast and wonder about reality’s most common questions: What is the right way to grow? What is the wrong way to grow?
I know it’s probably the full moon…but it’s mostly me. I’m excited to be near the end of my first draft, excited to start building an author platform, excited to create more and more things. I’m simply excited and restless, more on the inside than the outside. This energy building up inside needs to be regulated though regardless of my excitement. It’s good to ground yourself to recall the bigger picture. Doing this stabilizes you and builds self-trust, especially in the face of fear.
Oh my goddess, I’m pumped.
Being a writer is the best.
Witchy Side Note: This full moon energy is crazy! Sagittarius and Capricorn influences along with that north node in Cancer. It’s pretty significant!
What I’m going to discuss is nothing new to fantasy writers. I’m just expressing my excitement. I discovered a more analytical way to explain the magic system of my world without infodumping. Because if you’re going to be a hunter of mages and witches, you better know your s**t. Although my hunters fight fire with fire (literally and figuratively), I don’t want the combat scenes to be the only way my audience sees magic in action. As someone who performs witchcraft, I know there’s so much more to magic than fighting, healing, cursing, banishing, empowering, and the like. There’s a way you should study magic where you do your best to understand its limitations and potential when it flows through yourself and others or else things backfire and get messy. I think the best magicians in history and now are the ones who developed a sort of classification for types of magic that are not just informative, but also personal while avoiding permanence. There should be a balance or correspondence like the hermetic teachings emphasize. I don’t believe all magical techniques are meant to be uniform because sometimes magic is just an experiential whirlwind, but there’s something really tantalizing and sexy about analytical breakdowns for the sake of efficiency.
Or maybe my sapiosexual, Aquarian energy gives me weird kinks. I don’t know. Don’t judge me.
I wanted to share a new discovery today. There’s a website known as Occult World that provides very straightforward information about occult terms, entities, activities, and the like. They also offer courses, but I don’t know too much about that. I wanted to share and save it as a resource. If anyone else is more familiar with this site, you should chat with me.
I was looking into the demon Forcas, or Furas/Foras, because his name came to mind when I was thinking about, actually, stressing about, how I really, really don’t want my mind to lose its sharpness. I’m so insecure about math, my ADHD sometimes convinces me that my reading comprehension is garbage, and I’m convinced that I would be fluent in Japanese by now if my memory had better retention. Foras appeared offering help, but as someone who works with spirits quite a bit, I did some research (as any spirit worker should, I don’t care how experienced you are).
Honestly, he’s pretty chill. Buff as all get out, but overall pretty interesting.
Description of Forcas from The Goetia: “The Thirty-first Spirit is Foras. He is a Mighty President, and appeareth in the Form of a Strong Man in Human Shape. He can give the understanding to Men how they may know the Virtues of all Herbs and Precious Stones. He teacheth the Arts of Logic and Ethics in all their parts. If desired he maketh men invisible, and to live long, and to be eloquent. Hecan discover Treasures and recover things Lost. He ruleth over 29 Legions of Spirits, and his Seal is this, which wear thou, etc.”
Invisibility is a neat bonus. Unfortunately, I don’t think I’ve found anything else about this guy that is beyond this definition. Other sources simply echo the information already provided.
Will my experiences with him be referenced in my novel series?
Most definitely. I actually have a character in the novel who is an exorcist who partners with demons (for any anime fans, no it’s not like Blue Exorcist) to take care of certain tasks or receive information (actually, maybe I should watch Blue Exorcist again for more inspiration…I don’t know…).