The only freedom which deserves the name is that of pursuing our own good in our own way, so long as we do not attempt to deprive others of theirs or impede their efforts to obtain it. Each is the proper guardian of his own health, whether bodily or mental and spiritual

John Stuart Mill – On Liberty

Hello again.

I’m happy to make a quiet return to blogging and sharing the progress of my creative projects. I’ve been bursting with a lot of ideas, but also trying to slow down so I can focus on one idea or project at a time. Lately, I’ve been thinking about governance for the sake of worldbuilding for my dark fantasy novel and short story series. Exploring the philosophies behind various political agendas led me to think about what freedom truly means. As an American, I can admit that my country feeds the illusion of freedom and we reinforce that narrative with the way we treat one another’s individualized issues with prejudice, apathy, ignorance, and insecurity. We do this explicitly and implicitly, often not knowing which is which. It’s no surprise that feeding an illusion will inevitably make you delusional if you’re not grounded with some kind of autonomy and self-trust. Returning to my writing, my thoughts and feelings about governance and the microcosm of its power found in our interactions with friends and family have been braided into my work. I’m just realizing this now as an American who has particular privileges and faces particular acts of oppression, and yet is struggling to believe that I’m free. The narratives about freedom fed to me as a child and the narratives fed to me today are so flimsy, yet build a harsh friction between my pursuit of living a free and fulfilling life because I’m not obeying the narratives; I can never be free the “right” way.

I took a few weeks off of social media and thoroughly enjoyed it. I remembered when social media came out when I was a teenager, I think, and didn’t even care about joining it until I heard that Amy Lee from Evanescence made a Twitter account (lol!). Many people phrase the use of social media as being flooded by too much information at once, which I agree with. We’re not flooded just by information, but also many personal narratives from people we don’t even know. Those who are opinionated and have strong personalities seem to dominate as icons and influencers in their relative niches. For a while I thought I wanted that, but the cost of having that kind of status also challenges what freedom is. I don’t like the pressure that comes with meeting the expectations of others nor surrendering the majority of my energy to staying in contact and interacting with people from many walks of life on a daily basis. Lol, I can barely handle going to the grocery store maneuvering around people and sometimes having to talk to them (#firstworldproblems). So taking this break from social media helped me to find the balance I need when it comes to loving all the chaos that is the internet and making sure I’m grounded enough to create. I’ve decided I’m going to continue spending less time on social media and use it for marketing purposes for the most part.

I call myself a mystic and creative spirit as the sub-headline of Authentikei, but I should just put “nocturnal antisocial hermit”. I’m happiest when I’m alone and creating, but when I do share more of my writing, my music, and more, I’ll happily engage with you and others because I’m also at my happiest when I find kindred souls who fancy the dark side. I’ve accepted that I’m a hermit and that to maintain this freedom, I have to be responsible enough to preserve my health, which is what freedom currently means to me, but I’m a hermit who is grateful for the online and real-life communities that resonate with me as they’re wonderful reminders that I’m not and never will be alone. As the proper guardian of my health, this is my choice and I’ll do whatever’s necessary to preserve this sacred freedom. Perhaps that sounds dramatic in regards to social media, but I can’t emphasize how important it is to me to make sure my time and energy is no longer commanded by the people who are apathetic and ignorant of my needs. I believe every creative spirit has that right.

Thank you for your time. Also, I wanted to share the philosophy video from Academy of Ideas that inspired this post.

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I did start this website to track the progress of my novel series and I nearly forgot that (not gonna lie, I feel I’ve said this before…yikes). I’ll be posting more updates regarding the novel and the side projects I’ll be doing for the sake of the novel (writing articles, blogging, making music, short stories, etc.) more frequently. I think this is the best way to keep myself on track.

The article series on the Hermetic Principles is still going on along with research on past life experiences, auras, and preparing another prose poetry piece on elemental magic. All of it is relevant to the novel. Pouring into those short-term projects and sharing them with you all helps others understand my writing style and build my audience. I’m grateful for all of you, by the way. The support and patience all around the world is really inspiring. I love connecting with other writers and other people who have had these metaphysical or paranormal experiences. With that being said…

I’m going to create a “Contact” page soon so anyone can message me through the website if they like. I’ve had a few messages via Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram, which is great, but I want there to be accessibility on the website too in case those of you who visit my page aren’t into social media. I’ll announce when that’s up.

Lastly, I have a worldbuilding idea that will allow me to share it with everyone in the midst of construction without spoiling the novel series. It’s been a dream I’ve put off for too long. So here we go.

More updates soon. Blessings.

I think this is a good video on the stoic perspective on time management and making the most out of our lives, but there are some things that are too generalized I’d like to address in respect to making sure certain assumptions aren’t made. Before I go on, this video is animated by the YouTube channel Philosophies of Life. I really admire their work, so please support them.

Self-awareness is emphasized throughout the video encouraging a more objective view on what your life was and what you can do presently. Point eight discusses how we shouldn’t invest our time in what is “trivial”, but what is “trivial” to one can be fulfilling to another. We all have a variety of habits and interests that may not be considered productive because they seem like they’re not linked to any kind of career path or ambition. The trivialities discussed in this video are subjective. Many use social media as a marketing tool for business and that includes selfies. Pro-gamers are paid to understand and master whatever game is in front of them. The things that should be considered “trivial”, in the most general sense, are the habits that reinforce our self-defeating thoughts.

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What is most trivial is endorsing a stimuli that encourages one’s defeat rather than encourage their empowerment. I’m not a big selfie person, but taking a selfie and not caring what the comments say can encourage empowerment and resilience, even in the stoic sense. What would be self-defeating would be someone letting the comments get to them, deleting the selfie, then scrolling through another person’s feed because they appear more attractive than them. This would be a disempowering act and a time waster. Block the haters, keep the selfie up, move on with your day. Another time investment in what is trivial is being around those who praise self-defeat, whether they know it or not. Those type of people not only take away our time, but also our energy. It’s actually a cultural norm to do these things, complain about work, whine about the bills, groan about the kids. Yes, it’s good to have someone to talk to. Making a habit of letting those discussions become self-defeating is not.

What is trivial is what is made trivial. Sometimes we need stimuli that other people would consider “a waste of time”, but it’s YOUR time. You should be deciding how you manage it. The video recognizes living for yourself rather than others and I think it should be pointed out that living for yourself also includes deciding what is worth your time. Management of time isn’t always about banishing what is normally considered a waste, but scheduling time for doing the things that you love. An early point was stating how the “reward” should be immediate after completing a long-term goal, which is also called positive reinforcement. I’d hope that we incorporate that in our lives and not mistake this video deciding what should or shouldn’t be a reward (because it isn’t lol, it was just an example).

If you’d like tips on how to empower yourself by understanding yourself and your preferred sensations, read my article on cleansing and empowering the self.