Do you ever catch yourself trying to gain the approval of others? I consider that to be a bad habit of mine. There’s nothing I need to prove and trying to make people understand where I’m coming from can be such a drag. I feel like I’m surrounded by people who don’t try to get to know me and go out of their way to keep it that way. That probably makes me sound bitter, lol. So what? Maybe I am. I’m still working on that.

However, I do find life is a lot easier for me when I go my own way and remember I belong to myself. Conformity to other people’s agendas is not only boring, but it chips away at your self-respect. I don’t need to belong to a group, a community, or a significant other; I belong to myself. Yes, I do appreciate the people/communities in my life, but they also meet the criteria of some of the best advice I’ve ever come upon: Some people are just too f**ked up to care. Therefore, I have to make myself top priority. No one else will ever do it.

This is the energy I got from a reversed three of cups today and I’m all for it.

– Leliel

Deck: Goetia Tarot of Darkness

Authenticity is my mantra for life. That’s why “Authentikei” is what it is.

With that said, I wanted to share a morning reflection: We can be honest without fulfilling the fantasy that are honesty has to win. I think many of us, especially myself, are convinced that we have to prove something, win over someone, or one-up the people in our life to be validated for who we are and that is complete and utter bullshit. When we do this, it’s just a sign of defensiveness and insecurity, and though it’s natural to be insecure, countering that by doing something unnatural just to prove a point is invalidating in itself. Don’t expect others to put you in first place; they want that spot too. The point: Be honest with yourself and you can be honest with others without the competitive filter.

Have a good week. Stay safe.