You don’t know this about me,
you flirting, busy bee,
but I’m hurt by the ghost you’ve become.
Haunted for years by shallowness,
not that you are, but I’m so distressed
by the ephemeral fading you’ve done
in my life as a picture, out as a memory.
Back in again, posing so charmingly,
far from my lips, a spectral self-dismissed.
Perhaps your tease is punishing me
for ruining the first date so ignorantly.
No apology could summon that could’ve been kiss.
I’m aching, but not complaining.
Your beauty constant is reigning.
So haunt and prove you don’t need me.
My reflections affirm the needed solitude
before loving with a confident attitude,
and the attentiveness you deserve, busy bee.
So ghost shamelessly, dear.
You deserve the best.
I’m sorry you met me
at my pitiful worst.
Hello, My head has been stuck in the books lately and when that happens blog posts seem to gradually fade, haha. Between studying, blogging, and my other music projects, I’m missing my novel and the VPD entries again. So I thought maybe I should take NaNoWriMo seriously and see how far I get. Once Samhain … Continue reading Psychology Has Inspired Me To Try NaNoWriMo (and I’m really excited) – [Just Me/News]
I didn’t really notice the Mercury in Scorpio retrograde energy until yesterday and I could only express how the energy messed with me in a silly Tumblr post. Yeah, so that happened and the relief from perfectionism just from the academic aspect has bled into the music aspect as well. I’m so freaking close to … Continue reading Mercury Retrograde Killed My Perfectionism (Sort of) – Just Me
High standards bent my neck, forcing me to look at false mirrors; a blink is all it took. Then with closed my eyes, I breathed so deep my neck relaxed, insecurities fell asleep. I’m awake again.