“I’d rather write one good book than ten mediocre ones.” – Donna Tartt
I’m finding that deadlines are bittersweet. They’re motivating, but I strongly feel that anything I create must be made to the best of my ability and I trust in my ability to make high quality work. I’m not striving for perfection as an artist; I’m striving for excellence. I want nothing more than progression and every publication to be a milestone in that progress.
With that being said, I’m eager for the near completion of my short story and the projects to follow. I’m also grateful for the time I’ve had to take care of myself and a very productive week. I hope anyone reading this is staying safe and trusting themselves to strive for excellence too with the time and power they have. Be patient with yourself.
So after some work and some rest, I’ve been able to progress in character development and the lore of my world. I’m stuck on vampires again, but temporarily. One of my characters is my vampire and an exorcist. I’m basing her spirit work skills on exorcism techniques they used in ancient Japan.
For the record, working on a novel isn’t doing the same thing every day, at least for me. To keep the mind active and the inspiration flowing, I think it’s okay to take different approaches to your work. It’s a great confidence booster too when you create a different way of developing your story and it leads to progress, but even when you don’t make the breakthrough you hoped for, taking in that experience is a progress in itself.
My struggles with anxiety have surprisingly inspired me to fight for a confident attitude towards my work and myself. Shadow work during this time (shadow work is a self-reflection process many pagans/witches do through divination or other means, in case you don’t know) has helped so much. I did start a daily Instagram posting of one of my shadow work methods, but now I’m behind because of some mental health issues on my end. I’m still trucking on though and wanted to say that things are still moving forward.
To end, a little advice from a teabag tassel I got yesterday: The purpose of life is to know yourself, love yourself, trust yourself, and be yourself.
I did start this website to track the progress of my novel series and I nearly forgot that (not gonna lie, I feel I’ve said this before…yikes). I’ll be posting more updates regarding the novel and the side projects I’ll be doing for the sake of the novel (writing articles, blogging, making music, short stories, etc.) more frequently. I think this is the best way to keep myself on track.
The article series on the Hermetic Principles is still going on along with research on past life experiences, auras, and preparing another prose poetry piece on elemental magic. All of it is relevant to the novel. Pouring into those short-term projects and sharing them with you all helps others understand my writing style and build my audience. I’m grateful for all of you, by the way. The support and patience all around the world is really inspiring. I love connecting with other writers and other people who have had these metaphysical or paranormal experiences. With that being said…
I’m going to create a “Contact” page soon so anyone can message me through the website if they like. I’ve had a few messages via Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram, which is great, but I want there to be accessibility on the website too in case those of you who visit my page aren’t into social media. I’ll announce when that’s up.
Lastly, I have a worldbuilding idea that will allow me to share it with everyone in the midst of construction without spoiling the novel series. It’s been a dream I’ve put off for too long. So here we go.
Every character should have purpose. I had to redesign a character today, who started off one way, but I had to make her the opposite of what she initially was to improve her presence in the story.
I hate side characters without purpose. I’ve seen main characters without purpose and they make me livid, but side characters are just as bad because you don’t want the atmosphere your main character is in to be bland or not memorable. A side character without purpose and depth to their design is a nuisance. Even if the character is the comedic relief or specifically needed as a plot device for a single moment, the character should have purpose.
Okay, I sound like a broken record, don’t I? A character with purpose is a character designed with significant attachments to the setting, themes, and plot of the story. This doesn’t mean the character has to “belong” in the world you put them in; it means that their attributes affect what is happening in your world or story for a goddamn reason. Like, imagine reading a romantic story where the protagonist and their love interest are destined to be, but a character who is literally a nobody, doesn’t even have a name, starts spewing out the protagonist’s darkest secrets for no reason just so the love interest negatively reacts and every time the protagonist somehow gets their love interest to accept them again, the nobody just appears again to spew their shit and vanish into the darkness until they’re needed again. And when you get to THE END of this romantic story, even though it ends with “happily ever after”, the nobody is never explained! No! I hate that! I’ve even read fanfictions like that! I’ll never accept this unless the story is avant garde af (but even avant garde has more purpose than an underdeveloped character and that’s saying something)!
I don’t know why I’m heated about this…it’s because I’m thinking about characters without purpose in other stories…maybe. I don’t know. I am sure as hell determined to give my character’s purpose though. If I ever create a pointless character, it will be done to prove my point in the most spiteful way possible.
Words Written The Last Couple of Days: About 3576 words Total Word Count Is About: 114,149 words
So close to the end. While writing, I realized I need more scifi literature in my life. I have some, but not enough. Because…aliens. Are aliens even really that alien? They’re just another species in a different part of the universe. Humans can be considered aliens. Well, whatever, I just want to write about a telepathic species from a higher dimension and for it to not sound…awkward? I think that’s the word I’m looking for.
I did a lot of research today. Sumerian mythology has interested me lately, since it’s one of our oldest belief systems. The stories are… very human to me. Mystical to a god-tier level, of course, but still human to me. Well, perhaps I’m using “human” as a synonym for relatable in this case. I’m sure others have felt that way when they read a type of mythos. I really like Inanna, Enki, and Tiamat… Anyway…yeah. It captivated me and I’m hoping I can learn a little bit of Sumerian cuneiform myself.
Additionally, lots of astrology study today. I decided it was time to learn about the different types of aspects and what they signify. It’s…still confusing, but I have a better idea of what it all means. I was able to read my own chart better than before. I did write an article about how you can remember the astrological houses in a simpler way so that helped a bit (it’s mostly based on certain keywords and the signs; don’t judge me too harshly if you’re a hardcore astrologer lol).
Overall, a day of research was worth it. My blogging the last couple of days hasn’t been as frequent because I was focusing on my novel. Goodness, I hit a very annoying writer’s block yesterday. The left side of my brain wanted to categorize every detail about a character when the right side just wanted to let the flow happen and write. Sometimes I have to subside to the left so the flow can continue, but yesterday I pushed through that crap and let my right side take the wheel. It was rough, but I reached my writing goal. It’s the first draft. Not everything has to be perfect, just foundational.
Hopefully, I will have the first draft finished by June 1st.
All the writing that I do is for personal exploration and for my upcoming novel series. I recently finished an article about faith and Hermetic philosophy/religion, which I’ll share tomorrow and yowza did it take up a lot of time, but it was such a blast. I don’t regret living this way for a second. When I started writing for Vocal.Media, it was kind of hard for me to define myself and as a Metaphysical Article Writer, because, like all writers, I wasn’t sure if my articles were succinct enough in evidence or information or that they were too direct or didn’t have that engaging of a tone. There’s definitely room for improvement, but writing for Vocal.Media was sort of like a desperate grasp at making sure my writing career was intact while I work towards getting my novel series out. It was a fortunate opportunity I stumbled upon and I’m determined to make a living off of along with being a novelist, musician, and hopefully a decent artist.
My writing will continue to focus on the metaphysical, the occult, and beyond, but as I hone in on the end of the first draft of my novel, I’ll be preparing to advertise the series through art and music. This is a very independent career track and sometimes I doubt if I’ll even prove to myself that it’s plausible to live this way. I mean, others have proved it, but I know they had to work ridiculously hard. I don’t mind the challenge, I just need to remember that the results of my efforts are abundant. Progress is in every word I type, every melody in my head, every vision I try to sketch on paper. I have to remember that; otherwise, I’ll completely neglect everything I accomplished so far.
I guess this post was really just a pat on the back for myself and a reminder for me not to obsess over the statistics of my Vocal.Media articles and count the pennies until I can make my first withdrawal. It certainly does take a while to earn payment when you’re starting out on this, but like I said, I enjoy the challenge.