The Universe Listens and Responds

There’s a great difference between being alone and lonely. When you wake up, you do realize that you’re never really alone, but the loneliness can creep in at times. Loneliness is actually a perception more than it is a fact. Do we all feel lonely sometimes? Definitely. However, I feel the reason why loneliness is a matter of perception is because this feeling only appears when we experience disconnection.

Even with family and friends around, disconnection occurs when it seems like we’re out of harmony with what’s happening around us. Since a lot of what happens to reality mirrors what’s going on within ourselves, disharmony with reality makes us want to disconnect. I recently experienced this disharmony. The best thing I did for myself is sit down and cry, talk to my spirit guides, create music, draw; in other words, I had to express how I felt about the disharmony. Afterwards, the external reality responded with signs and messages. This also helped me gain clarity on my own internal dialogue that at first seemed so repetitive and directionless. That’s what I mean by reality mirroring what’s going on within. If there is disconnection due to disharmony, all we can do is express that.

To manifest the connection and belongingness we long for in life, our expressions for what we need in life need to be loud and true. Some of us express privately, like myself. Some of us need to express it more publicly. Either way is considered loud and true because the universe listens and responds. Even those who don’t feel that the universe is really listening still NEED to express themselves. Their expression is an action that leads to a reaction. That’s the universe speaking, whether they like it or not. Every action parallels, ripples, echoes, and mirrors what’s already there. If we remember that expressing our needs and desires can guide us in life, no matter how directionless we feel in the moment, results will happen.

Change is the only constant, immutable energy that surrounds us. It’s sentience is still being debated by humanity, but I surely believe that energy is listening. You are not alone. The universe listens and responds.

Advertisements

Validation

I ran into this video on TikTok by GaryVee and the message was really neat.

728x90 Explore Twitch Services

Validation is a very tricky scenario. There are elements of what validation is in my prose poem Earth Magic; where how you grow up and who you’re around influences the way you feel about yourself. When we seek validation, there’s always that great risk of not being grounded; your roots end up being pulled one way and the other then you end up not having any foundation. Being uprooted from any situation can be traumatizing, the precursor to an existential crisis. Unfortunately, the solution we’re introduced to for the pain and uncertainty is seeking more validation even though that may have been what uprooted us in the first place. We depend on external sources to confirm or deny who we are and simultaneously mistrust our internal sources, our intuition, our self-esteem, our ability to self-reflect.

Internal and external conflict is such a powerful tool in writing because it’s so human. An inner monologue could contrast what other events are happening around the character, which brings suspense and tension. We go through this all the time. What’s going on within isn’t in alignment with what’s going on around us. The popular kids Garyvee talked about may have not aligned with the pressure that comes with popularity, but they would ignore or repress what’s going on internally to continue being fed the validation externally. Validation like this can be very problematic psychologically, but there’s another side to validation that is much more fulfilling.

Signup for GameFly today to get the latest PS4, Xbox and Nintendo Switch games!

Many people think inner peace is a façade because it appears to be near impossible. So why even try to achieve it? I think inner peace at its core is an acceptance of the internal and external tensions along with an acceptance of what can and can’t be controlled. Validation from others is something that you feed. If you want validation from your parents, you’ll feed it by doing whatever they tell you to do or what you think they’d expect from you. If you want validation from peers and coworkers, you will change your behavior or even hide your true behavior. The energy put into feeding the influence validation has on you can be shifted to validation of the self that eventually finds the external sources that are in alignment with who you are. This can happen with even small things, like personal interests; I don’t like mainstream pop music, but if I want validation from peers who like mainstream pop, I’ll listen to it until my ears bleed. The truth is, I like rock and heavy metal. The peers who like mainstream pop may no longer be in alignment with me because of my interests, but now they know who I am and they’ll either want to understand me more or distance themselves. Either way, I now have the opportunity to connect with fellow metal heads and we can now garner a reciprocal validation, but even if validation from the metal heads doesn’t happen, my love for metal will be enough for me. I accept I can’t control my peers or other metal heads; I can control what I listen to and can chose to enjoy it as much as I want.

Validation has a close association with “liking” or “loving” something or someone. That’s why I think it’s a tricky concept that is best simplified when you focus on self-acceptance first and go from there. That way, you’ll never be in poverty even if “likes” become an actual currency. This is what “grounding” really is.

There’s a Black Mirror episode about this. It’s called “Nosedive”, season three, episode one. Please watch it. It’s perfect.

Don’t forget to follow…

Twitter
Facebook
Instagram
Tumblr

Trickster Gods

This isn’t going to be a long post, but I wanted to express something.

I think it’s really interesting that any god or spirit who decided to ignore the norm and sculpt their own destiny is considered a “trickster”. The benevolent, selfless spirits are more respected than the intelligent tricksters because they’re considered selfish, but I think selflessness has been coated as negligence of one’s self-worth for far too long. And to defend the trickster, I think self-preservation should be praised more. Tricksters help those who get taken for granted with their stories of losing and winning. Tricksters teach us to be resourceful while considering our strengths and weaknesses. There are heroes who have a moral code that pushes them to be persistent, but the trickster is just as persistent and fully aware that they can turn the direction of their moral compass however they please to prevent being trapped.

Tricksters are the epitome of versatility and freedom. They live as they wish to; why are they shamed for that? I’m not saying all of them are role models, but when it comes to acknowledging one’s inner strength, we should look to them for advice, while other gods may ask us to pray to them and suffer in silence.

The London Synchronicity

First of all, that sounds like a cool title for…something.

Second, synchronicities are nothing new for me. I really don’t care who thinks it’s all just coincidental silliness. I care more about the signs themselves. Numbers are more direct, but words, phrases, or pictures are a bit obscure. I’ve been getting signs about London and the UK since March.

Let’s discuss what a synchronicity is in general real quick. I recently found a post that sums up what most of us see when we first run into them:

AbeBooks Weird Book Room

Like I said on the post, this has been happening to me for five years. Numbers I’m used to, but when it’s a word, specifically a location, that often means I’m going to be heading there or should be trying to get there as soon as I can. It first happened with Seattle, which significantly changed my life (that’s for another blog post). So what’s happening in London or the UK in general? No idea AND I have no idea how I’d get there.

So I do kind of wonder if maybe it’s a person or a company? But it’s gotta be the city, right? I’d love to go. Don’t know how it’ll happen, but maybe I’ll manifest the funds and accessibility to get there.

Just wanted to share this experience. Synchronicity is a strange phenomena that few understand because “coincidence” is more convenient. Why can’t coincidence be meaningful?

Leadership Terrifies Me

It’s not because of the responsibility that could be asked of me. My whole life has been driven by being responsible.

It’s not because of the expectations others could place on me when in this position. It used to be strenuous for me, but I have learned how to deal with that in a much better way.

It’s not because of the workload, because I’m a hard worker and very good at self-management.

It’s the power. It’s always been the power. It’s always been the fact that I have the ferocity to crush those who get in my way even though deep inside I’m terrified and guilt-ridden over the long-term damage I’ve done; the kind of damage where karmic forces may even think they have their work cut out for them. I can destroy, but I often embrace power when I’m creating, where I’m building up instead of tearing down. I’m not saying leadership is being that person who tears others down, but it can certainly seem that way living in a world like this one. The truth is that sometimes a leader has to destroy, release, let go, banish, terminate, the list goes on. Power creates and destroys; it’s a cyclical system none of us can get away from. So, I think I’m someone who favors creating and has always feared destroying.

And that needs to stop. Destruction and creation are both necessary forces. They are in harmony, like life and death. Also like life and death, life gets the more positive associations and death gets the negative because loss and distance hurts. Destruction is associated with negativity if it’s destroying something we’re lovingly attached to, but we rarely think about how creation can be negative and destruction can be positive. The creation of a system that brings suffering is something most of us aspire to destroy. If we successfully destroy that system, we have a platform, a blank slate, to create something new and with that creation comes constant reformation and evolution.

So knowing this…why would I fear that power? Why would I fear such natural forces? Probably due to my limitations and fears of the unknown. I don’t want to be the cause of anyone’s suffering, but I have brought pain to others. I have to accept that and be accountable. “Never to have suffered is to have never been blessed,” is one of my favorite quotes from Edgar Allan Poe. Accountability and enlightenment is the blessing within suffering. Some people may have thought the blessing to be healing, but I personally feel it’s the transparency that accountability provides and the empowerment enlightenment brings.

The power that comes with leadership has always terrified me. Why would I fear such a blessing?

It’s Leo Season pt. 2

I was wrong.

The energy from the reason and this season isn’t about “positivity”. It’s about empowerment and confidence. We spent a good deal in Cancer season reflecting on many of the deep wounds our inner child went through with a cameo from father Capricorn to help us stand on our two feet again. Now it’s time to march on. The wounds are healing and we’re stronger now. It’s time to fucking show that off, but not for attention’s sake, for my sake.

Shit lol. My cynicism really likes canceling out self-worth wtf. This came to me after meditating with malachite and burning some sage in the space, by the way.

It’s Leo Season…

…And I’m not feeling it.

In my last post I discussed practicality and how that’s been helping me with the recent events that have happened with my room being flooded and all. I haven’t felt the need to try to push myself towards a positive look on everything, but rather just a productive view.

But my tarot reading and rune casting this morning basically said: “Yeah, a lot of inconveniences and obstacles have been coming up and it’s obviously aggravating…but it’s going to turn out for the better! There’s a lot of awesomeness ahead!” And I wish I could say I wasn’t trying to be cynical…but yeah. I thought the energy was so weird. I knew the message was genuine, but I really, really wasn’t feeling it. I spent most of the day wondering why I got such a high energy reading. Well, it’s Leo season. This is “believe in yourself” season. It’s “time to shine” season. Even though I’m a Leo Rising, my Aquarius energy outweighs it lol. And it’s just…strange.

Well, I got that out. Time to work.