A thousand tendrils twisting deep, deep inside me. Rising through my chest cavity so I believe I’ve lost all sanity. Aching, wanting to weep over this instinct so deep. Avoiding numbness to the lies by trusting my mind’s eye. Deep, deep inside me, the bellowing monster, calling, calling.
A thousand teeth chattering deep, deep inside me. Fluent in blasphemy, self-decay, a master at sending my bravery away. Hopeless, wanting to soar rather than dive into the ocean floor. How dare I try to flee from drowning when the monster within is also surrounding. Deep, deep inside me, the endless monster, hunting, hunting.
A thousand whispers dancing deep, deep inside me. Tearing my logic apart from me. Hoping I’ll believe its reality. Listening, but wanting to dream just to recall my dreams losing meaning. Hope waltzes with the whispers, destiny becomes a fleeting shiver. Deep, deep inside me. The prancing monster, eating, eating.
Deep, deep inside me. I must believe I’m killing it slowly.
Believe it or not, I got this idea while doing a meditation today. I want to start uploading my own poetry of the gothic/horror genre onto my Youtube channel (It’s dead right now, but you can still subscribe lol). I’ve been trying to find other goth/horror blogs, channels, and tumblrs to just get a feel for what the community is like. Though I’m goth myself, I think I’ve always been just a little shy. I’m ready to get out of my comfort zone a bit and post more content that isn’t as time consuming. Digital art takes time. Writing my novel is taking forever, of course. My music takes time as well. Poetry is one of the few things that naturally flows, is simply to edit, and it’s something I’ve wanted to share, I just…yeah. Sometimes anxiety wins. I actually wrote a poem about that and I will hopefully have it posted tomorrow. Stay tuned.
Please chat with me and tell me who your favorite poets are? Or people who read poetry who are really fun to listen to. G.M. Danielson is pretty awesome. He doesn’t read just poetry though. Lots of horror short stories too.
Also, I have a music recommendation. Witchhouse is my new favorite genre.