I’ll allow the video to speak for itself. Please don’t feign ignorance on this day if you’re American. Don’t ignore history. Take time to learn whose land you’re on.
I really hate it when I disappear for a week or so at a time and I am sorry for that. It really comes down to the way my energy has been distributed. The part-time job (which really is a measely 4-5 hours 3 times a week) drains me. And it’s not necessarily the job itself, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I have a high sensitivity to how and where I give my energy. I find it’s very similar to how introverts are drained by people and extroverts are drained by loneliness, but for me it’s being drained combined with a lack of fulfillment.
Yesterday, I gave myself a rest day. I decided to read more of The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova and came across a passage that reminded me of the major arcana “The World” in tarot, which then led to an idea about my own novel and that led to a quick study into Christian gnosticism, which then inspired a backstory for my antagonist and protragonist. I could spend an entire day diving into literature, history, religion, philosophy, and any other river of knowledge because it literally quenches the thirst I need for feeling fulfilled.
As I wrote on my tumblr, this is all I am. I consider my “art” basically anything I write, compose, sing, draw, or any creative project I get into. Everything else is self-explanatory. I can’t handle being caged in like it seems at the moment. But I’m not caged. I have plenty of resources that I am and should be using to build the life I want (and really, it’s a life I already have; I’m just building upon it every day). Just need to take my own advice from my article, “The ‘Lack Mentality’ is Killing Us” :
“None of us like being inconsiderate with our resources or insensitive to those who are trying to support us, but it just doesn’t seem to be enough. The lack mentality encourages the emptiness that no one asked for. It’s just there. One thing to remember is that the emptiness you struggle with developed over time. This means, decreasing that emptiness will happen over time…Stop expecting the resources and support given to provide instant gratification,”Authentikei, 2018
So, each time I go to the part-time job and decide to work more and more hours there instead of trusting myself to provide my own income through my work, that emptiness expands a little more. The mental and emotional fatigue comes from feeling hollow and uninspired. I plan to change that and use every resource to do so. It will take patience, because it won’t be instant, but I’m so damn sure it’ll be worth it. Financial responsibility and dream building is a tough tug-of-war for many of us, but you certainly feel more alive when you let the dreams win. We forget sometimes that our dreams can manifest into a real lifestyle that monetizes itself.
For those who read and check up on me, thank you for the support. You’ll hear more of my work very, very soon.
I’ve been angry about this for over 24 hours and I need to let it go because I am not going to argue with ignorant minds on the Internet, but I just want to say this: Western academia is not the gatekeeper of historical truth. Just because an event in history wasn’t published by the University of Harvard or Oxford or whatever doesn’t mean “it didn’t happen” or that “there is no evidence”, especially when it comes to the history of indigenous people who weren’t even granted the privilege to have their history published for so long, let alone speak English. Regarding the history of American Natives, there are less than 60 Native American Studies programs in America. That’s a drop in the pool of other historical studies programs that focus solely on British or Eastern European history. Lastly, there will always be glimpses and events in history where no matter how far an archaeologist digs, how many books a scholar reads, or how many ancient texts or artifacts a historian or linguist may observe, we will never know the complete truth and we should accept that. Support understanding the wonders of history, but don’t act like the truth and nature of humanity is absolute. I mean, really, go ahead and claim omnipotence. Let’s see how far you get with that.
So after some work and some rest, I’ve been able to progress in character development and the lore of my world. I’m stuck on vampires again, but temporarily. One of my characters is my vampire and an exorcist. I’m basing her spirit work skills on exorcism techniques they used in ancient Japan.
For the record, working on a novel isn’t doing the same thing every day, at least for me. To keep the mind active and the inspiration flowing, I think it’s okay to take different approaches to your work. It’s a great confidence booster too when you create a different way of developing your story and it leads to progress, but even when you don’t make the breakthrough you hoped for, taking in that experience is a progress in itself.
My struggles with anxiety have surprisingly inspired me to fight for a confident attitude towards my work and myself. Shadow work during this time (shadow work is a self-reflection process many pagans/witches do through divination or other means, in case you don’t know) has helped so much. I did start a daily Instagram posting of one of my shadow work methods, but now I’m behind because of some mental health issues on my end. I’m still trucking on though and wanted to say that things are still moving forward.
To end, a little advice from a teabag tassel I got yesterday: The purpose of life is to know yourself, love yourself, trust yourself, and be yourself.
- Weapons in science fiction
- The history of alchemy
- The fundamentals of alchemy
- Greek and Egyptian History
- The Egyptian afterlife and The Book of the Dead
Today was a fabulous research day! Today’s research topics helped me flesh out the history of two characters who, for lack of a better term, gave me major feels while writing them. Now that I’ve worked through their lives a bit more, I can continue writing their about their pain 🙂
Ether or aether
1. “Identical with the Hindu Akasha and the fifth element in Western Magick, Spirit, which is believed to originate the other four: Earth, Water, Fire, and Air. Also called Astral Light, Qi, Odic Force, Orgone, Prana, Vril, the Force. It can be concentrated and directed by will, and intensified by breath,” – The Llewellyn Complete Book of Psychic Empowerment.
2. (Etymology) “In ancient cosmology, the element that filled all space beyond the sphere of the moon, constituting the substance of the stars and planets. Conceived of as a purer form of fire or air, or as a fifth element. From 17c.-19c., it was the scientific word for an assumed “frame of reference” for forces in the universe, perhaps without material properties. The concept was shaken by the Michelson-Morley experiment (1887) and discarded early 20c. after the Theory of Relativity won acceptance…” – Online Etymology Dictionary
In Ancient Greece, aether was synonymous with the air the gods breathed and also with fire, referring to their deity Aether, the son of the goddess Nyx and the god Erebus.
The Use of Ether In Spirit Strings
Ether is the energetic essence of the planet Terrana. It flows through every Terran like blood allowing them to perform magic (active or passive).
More info coming soon…
Spirit Strings is a dark science fantasy novel I’m writing. Read more about it on the homepage.
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Fancy yourself some cool symbols to satisfy an intellectual or mystical itch? Well, I hope you’re ready for what’s ahead. There are so many symbols out there that tickle our subconscious and reveal what and how our ancestors perceived the world and life’s merciless circumstances.
1. The Aesclepius Wand
Don’t confuse this for the Caduceus because they’re quite different symbols associated with different Greek Gods, but they do have similar properties. This is considered the true symbol of medical practice. The wand itself is connected to the old method of trying to extract parasites by letting them wind around a stick then pulling them out of the body. The snake doesn’t symbolize a parasite, in this case, however. The serpent signifies healing and transformation from a mental and spiritual perspective. Aesclepius or Asclepius is the Greek god of healing and prophecy.Exclusive Deal – GameFly BOGO Offer. Get GameFly for 2 months for $20!
Article written by Authentikei
I recently published this article as an excuse to explore a book of symbols I completely forgot I had. I learned about how a corpse can be a candle, how skulls make good cups, I discovered a new belief, and that image you see in the thumbnail is an actual lion-serpent with an interesting history. I made the summaries of each discovery short and tasty so I hope you’ll give it a look and find it to be an interesting read. The Hand of Glory is my favorite.
Additionally, this is another one of my favorite research topics. In fact, it’s something I’ve been looking into since I was a kid. I was sort of in love with Jean Grey from X-Men and Raven from Teen Titans, which led me to wonder about the possibilities of telekinesis. They’ve influenced the creation of my main character in my novel as well. I’m sure most of us have felt silly for trying to lift something with our minds (I have tried many times…I still try sometimes; don’t judge me), but there’s a report I found that claims success so I had to explore that. I also came across a really good video about how our thoughts and emotions affect our body and even though that may seem like a “Duh!” kind of topic, the information I found really highlights the importance of mental and emotional health, but I also couldn’t help but compare the power of our emotions and thoughts to the structure of how telekinesis could work…supposedly.
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This website has been my go-to for referencing and double-checking some historical or mythological knowledge. Because my novel is about aliens who learn from the gods who inhabited earth for a while, I like to make sure any symbolism or mention of any beliefs/philosophies linked to them are generally correct.
Here it is: Ancient History Encyclopedia
Part of my writer paranoia, even though I’m writing under the genre of science-fantasy, the most “what if this happened even though it’s not completely historical or practical” genre ever, is the fear of being called out on not portraying characters who I base off of mythology, history, folklore, or the like in a substantial or entertaining way. The greater majority of my characters are more original, but I have several mythology based characters I simply don’t want “out of character” or… “out of lore”. I don’t know what to call that. I don’t know. Maybe all of this is simply pagan paranoia. I don’t want to dishonor any deities or legends, fictional or not.
If anyone has any other sources, feel free to share.