I got to travel out of town after months of staying in my home and it was so, so, so fantastic! Experiences with friends and observing different spaces inspired me so much. This pandemic…this year, really, has been depriving us from certain things one way or another, hasn’t it? I’m grateful for those of us who prioritize safety and care for others during this time because that will bring us all a step closer to experiencing the world in person again. I’m also grateful for the interconnectedness the internet gives us too, but virtual reality is not reality. Many of us are past expecting things to “go back to normal”, accepting that new cycles come and old ways pass on. The changes have been difficult to adapt to, but I must agree that the “new normal” is making so many of us embrace being more realistic, pragmatic, and open. We’re letting go of expectation and convenience to enhance our autonomy even when it challenges the status quo or makes closed-minded people erupt over what and who they can’t control.
We are learning the difference between being confident and being self-righteous. We are learning the difference between having conviction and being entitled. We are learning to be authentically bold rather than complacent or compliant. It’s a necessary development full of loss, heartache, and separation. As you pursue your truth, you will let go of what is false to you and lose far more than you expected or ever wanted. It’s amazing how expensive developing the true self is.
This isn’t necessarily because of the recent turmoil that has happened in the US for the last several years, although these years definitely encouraged me to leave whenever I can, but this feeling is what I’ve wanted since I was a child.
Traveling has always been exciting to me. I don’t want to travel as some tourist, however. I want a real adventure that dives into the histories of the world. Basically, I want to be Lara Croft or Indiana Jones lol but hopefully without the action-packed fight scenes (my reflexes just aren’t that good). Fortunately I had the privilege to travel a lot within America, but even more privileged to visit Japan, South Korea, France, and Spain. All of my trips were wonderful and I guess I’m really craving more.
I’ve been discouraged by the American parochialism, or rather trapped inside of it. America is going through incredible changes right now, which is going to require many of us to change whether we like or not. That’s why I think it’s important to travel so you’re not stuck within the boundaries of a stagnant philosophy or a belief system that doesn’t align with your truth. Being immersed in one culture for too long can cement you in an unproductive state of mind. I’m determined to not let that happened.
I’d rather learn from a spectrum of philosophies than drown in one. Really all I want to experience and an expansiveness of my consciousness. I am an artist and I need experience to create. I guess what I’m saying is that I’m starved for adventure. I need it to understand the purpose of my creations because ultimately, I’m the one who decides what my purpose is right?