Classical Lofi and Honest Chaos – [Just Me/Video]

First and foremost, I found classical lofi and I love it.

Second, I’ve accepted that my writing and creative career is being accomplished in chaotic baby steps. I make small achievements on a daily basis, I think, but thanks to the mental health issues I have, sometimes I forget that daily progress. There’s a lot about my mind that I’m still learning. What I have learned has completely disrupted every single one of my schedules. NaNoWriMo? Only lasted a few days. Poetry reading? Nearly forgot it existed. Psychology degree? Who cares. Eating healthy? Why?

Yeah. It got that bad and then some. It happens though. Actually, this is what my entire life has always been like and when I look back at how my literal hurricane brain somehow achieved previous goals, I’m impressed and baffled really. When my hurricane brain goes full throttle, I beat myself up about it and that is currently a hard habit to break. I long for structure when it comes to my life goals, even though I am a lover of chaos because it inspires me. I guess I have to accept that there’s a method to my madness now. Even my therapist told me I’m trying to force structure on things that aren’t needed, and my rebuttal was, “Dude, it’s my career though,” and my therapist replied with, “Sounds like you need a partner/help,” which I laugh at because who in their right mind would be able to handle me? I can’t even handle me…I know there are those crazy agents out there who are willing to help artists of all sorts promote themselves and their insanity, but I can’t really imagine anyone like that for myself. That doesn’t mean it can’t happen, but, you know…If it happens, it happens.

So yeah, that’s me currently. I’m going to continue understanding myself, grounding myself, and when another creative project is completed, I’ll let you know.

The most recent completion is finally releasing my cover of “Love’s A Burden” by the metal symphonic band Beyond The Black. It’s a dark electronic wonder and I love it. Many thanks if you listen and subscribe to my YouTube. If you don’t have YouTube in your country, I will upload the video on the website soon. You can find the music on Spotify, Tidal, Apple Music, GooglePlay and other digital music distributors.

Writing Music By Hand Is Hard and Time Consuming (Music Study)

No, I’m not talking about writing lyrics. I mean writing down the notes and all the other note signatures you need if you’re trying to improve your classical piano skills.

If you know anything about music, you can see for yourself that those notes of mine really aren’t anything complicated lol. It’s just crazy how long it took today to write this piece today. I warmed up around 4:45pm, then started actually playing/composing the original piece around 5:30pm and stopped at 8pm. So 2.5 hours for a two minute song. It was really fun though. I hope to be able to have the stamina to compose more and more. Studying classical music has always been a love of mine, but it became even more important when I discovered gothic and symphonic rock. That’s why my last post has a long list of musicians I admire.

I started taking classical piano lessons as a kid before I started training in karate, so my music theory knowledge faded a bit. I played by ear mostly when the lessons stopped and now I’m trying to get back in the classical saddle. It’s fun, but there’s a lot to remember and new things to learn. Hopefully, I’ll have an actual grand or upright someday. My keyboard is awesome enough to be sensitive to dynamics, but I wouldn’t be surprised if my fingers were super weak since the keys are basically plastic.

Overall, today was a good day.

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Music Recording Progress

I laid down some vocal tracks for the “Love’s A Burden” cover today and am starting to hone in the sound I’m wanting to portray in future music productions. I’m quite thrilled, but I am a bit stumped on what genre to call this. As I’ve said before, I’m exploring a goth subgenre, but it’s not really darkwave or anything of the like. It’s this goth, electronic, classically-influenced…thing. I don’t know what to call the thing, but whatever it is, I’m excited to share it. Hopefully, it will be shared with you all by this weekend. Fingers crossed.

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