This is another one of those “just me” posts. I need to express something that is incredibly important. When it comes to manifesting the life you want, you don’t reach your full manifesting potential when you treat it like a part-time job. This is hard to admit because right now I’m torn between this job, which is blogging/writing/making music professionally and my current part-time where I work with those with autism and developmental disabilities. I absolutely love every client I work with and I learn something new from all of them. I’m really not the kind of person to half-ass a job or anything, really. With that being said, I’m noticing the majority of my energy is going into the part-time job leaving me with little energy after that shift to work on this job.

And when I try to express this to others, I often get asked “Well, why don’t you just work on your dream job on your days off or the weekends?” Because the energy needed for my dream job keeps going to the other job throughout the week and I deserve rest days (I know angst inspires art sometimes, but really…). In a perfect world, I can balance the dream job and the part-time with the same amount of energy. We don’t live in a perfect world, my dream job suffers, the part-time still takes demand. Through my own meditations, I have learned enough about pouring your energy into too many things and being left empty. The power to manifest requires having the power to persist and believe. Yes, my part-time job is helping me provide for things such as transportation and bills, but I know for a fact that if depression and strong suicidal ideation didn’t convince me my dream job wasn’t worth anything, I would be providing for myself. What I’m manifesting, I’ve done before. I’ve seen for myself that it works, but I’m letting things, like this job and other fears, pull me away.

Part-time dreaming doesn’t work. It may pay the bills and it may be one of the most wonderful jobs I’ve ever had, but it’s not the career path I’ve chosen for myself. If anything, I know my career can bring in so much abundance, that I will be able to invest in the progress of this current part-time job more than I have already. I want to donate and give to other charities to, like environmental protection. I want to make a living as the artist that I am and excel to a platform of philanthropy. I’m not going to be able to do that with a part-time attitude. My part-time dreaming is going to be a full-time reality.

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All the writing that I do is for personal exploration and for my upcoming novel series. I recently finished an article about faith and Hermetic philosophy/religion, which I’ll share tomorrow and yowza did it take up a lot of time, but it was such a blast. I don’t regret living this way for a second. When I started writing for Vocal.Media, it was kind of hard for me to define myself and as a Metaphysical Article Writer, because, like all writers, I wasn’t sure if my articles were succinct enough in evidence or information or that they were too direct or didn’t have that engaging of a tone. There’s definitely room for improvement, but writing for Vocal.Media was sort of like a desperate grasp at making sure my writing career was intact while I work towards getting my novel series out. It was a fortunate opportunity I stumbled upon and I’m determined to make a living off of along with being a novelist, musician, and hopefully a decent artist.

My writing will continue to focus on the metaphysical, the occult, and beyond, but as I hone in on the end of the first draft of my novel, I’ll be preparing to advertise the series through art and music. This is a very independent career track and sometimes I doubt if I’ll even prove to myself that it’s plausible to live this way. I mean, others have proved it, but I know they had to work ridiculously hard. I don’t mind the challenge, I just need to remember that the results of my efforts are abundant. Progress is in every word I type, every melody in my head, every vision I try to sketch on paper. I have to remember that; otherwise, I’ll completely neglect everything I accomplished so far.

I guess this post was really just a pat on the back for myself and a reminder for me not to obsess over the statistics of my Vocal.Media articles and count the pennies until I can make my first withdrawal. It certainly does take a while to earn payment when you’re starting out on this, but like I said, I enjoy the challenge.

If you want to be awesome and help a starving writer out, checking out my articles would be the dopest thing you can do. If not for me, at least do it for my cat, Avery. Just click on this block of text then click on something that looks interesting to you.