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Chiron in Leo Mantra

The opinions of others are separate from my truth.

I woke up anxious and angry over a dream that revealed how poorly I respond to the actions and opinions of others. I gave them too much power. It’s exactly what has made manipulating me so easy for others whether I consider them close or are just random strangers. My Leo Chiron is in the first house vibing with my ascendant and opposing my Aquarian stellium (my sun, mercury, and saturn…yeah). This energy is aggravating. I jump to conclusions about how a person will respond to my actions and feelings and while thinking I’m preparing for the worst by setting up a good comeback or thinking of the most aggressive and vengeful way to put them in their place. It sucks living and thinking this way, thinking that because my emotional needs have been ignored and rejected time and time again I always have to be on guard and ready to fight. I’m never going to condone the people who have hurt me in the past, but I would like to stop acting like those people hold so much power over my life and identity. It’s not even really their fault that they have so much power over me; I give them that power. It’s unintentional, but I do it nonetheless.

Remember The Astrological Houses The Easy Way

So during today’s meditation and oracle reading, I reflected on the pain I was holding in my heart, the part of me that lashes out in offensive and defensive ways when my anxiety spikes. That pain is still there because I try so damn hard to ward off anymore ridicule and rejection externally, then completely forget that the internal pain is still there, still screaming for help. Why does healing have to be so tricky? I mean, I feel like I’m at the point where I know I can heal myself if I just nurtured self-healing more often. Why is my go to an immediate revenge plan or preparing for the worst? I guess that’s all I’ve known, but I’m ready to remind myself that I have options when it comes to my healing and that there are some points to remember as I heal:

  • Some people are too f**ked up to care about you. (The nice version is that people are not “emotionally mature” enough, but I like mine more.)
  • People and the universe we live in don’t owe you anything and aren’t obligated to care. It’s great when people do care, but as an absurdist, I accept that most things if not all things originate from a cold meaninglessness, but if we want, we can assign purpose/meaning to what benefits us even if that may seem pointless to others.
  • We all have limited views of one another. That chiron in Leo is a significator of social anxiety, if you ask me, so it’s good to remember that people, no matter how close they are, aren’t capable of understanding who you are in your entirety and vice versa. People are more often focused on their own shit anyway. Sure, there are some obsessive freaks out there that may think about you constantly, but how much would they really know? Probably not a lot.

To reinstate my power and inner truth, I came up with this mantra during meditation:

The opinions of others are separate from my truth.

While listening to the music below, I spoke this mantra aloud and it helped me feel less enmeshed with the people I was worried about. The point of being isn’t to change how people understand you. The point is to just be. I’m so done forgetting that.

What To Expect During Each Planetary Retrograde

You Belong To Yourself (3 of Cups reversed energy) -[Mystic Meditations]
Do you ever catch yourself trying to gain the approval of others? …
Autumn Post Challenge – Day 9 – I don’t have children… – [Just Me]
Prompt via The Life of Dee: Autumnal crafts for toddlers – give …
Moondays Should Be Mindful – [Just Me]
It's so important to have just one day completely stress free, but …
Is it Luck, Manifestation, or Coincidence? – [Mystic Meditations]
Is luck on my side? Will my goals in life that can …

I didn’t really notice the Mercury in Scorpio retrograde energy until yesterday and I could only express how the energy messed with me in a silly Tumblr post.

Yeah, so that happened and the relief from perfectionism just from the academic aspect has bled into the music aspect as well. I’m so freaking close to releasing this new cover song and already planning the next one!

Sometimes a friend will ask me if Mercury retrograde is even a “real” thing. Usually I say it comes down to your belief and understanding of astrology, but if the retrograde energies don’t seem to affect you, then why worry?

If you’re into astrology and want to know What To Expect During Each Planetary Retrograde, click here. And you’re welcome 🙂 .


More on Astrology

Astrology 101: The Aspects

How Your Twin Flame Journey Affects Your Venus Sign

Remembering The Astrological Houses The Easy Way


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Moondays Should Be Mindful – [Just Me]

It’s so important to have just one day completely stress free, but that’s not easy…like ever. Considering that many of us have been “grinding” so to speak either in the workforce or in school most of our lives, we can’t just say, “I’m relaxing now,” and boom! You’re chill AF. That’s not life. That’s not […]

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What To Expect During Each Planetary Retrograde

Astronomically, a planet going retrograde means the planet is appearing to be moving backwards because of retrograde motion. Astrologically, a planet going retrograde means that whatever sign or house that planet rules over is going to be strongly affected by that planet’s retrograde motion. The retrograde energy of a planet usually enhances their opposing astrological meanings. In 2020, we are up to our necks in retrogrades turning our personal realities upside down, so I figured it would be helpful to summarize the meaning of each retrograde

Following the “3 Questions You Should Ask While Researching The Occult” advice, I have come across the highly recommended book The Path of Alchemy (2006) by Mark Stavish. I’ve been reading it for a couple of weeks and find it very intriguing! Let me give you the who, when, and why.

Mark Stavish is well known as the Director of Studies for the Institute for Hermetic Studies and over 35 years of Traditional Western Esotericism making him a leading authority in Hermeticism today. You can read more about his academic and publishing history here, but I’m sure his reputation proceeds him for those who have already delved into the Hermetic Qabalah teachings. Some of his books, including The Path of Alchemy were published in the early 2000s, but he’s published many articles and is running a current blog here. As for the why, I think it’s pretty clear Stavish is dedicated to the occult sciences. After reading his interviews, he seems pretty down to earth as someone who acknowledges and is respectful of the different paths one can take to pursue magic, yet stands his ground as to why Hermeticism is essential to his life path.

My Take on The Path of Alchemy

I truly appreciate the informative tone of this book. I don’t know if you’ve experienced the dissatisfying ceremonial or hermetic magicians who are arrogant or publish books that are more fluff than education, but I’m sure over it. I take avid notes while reading The Path of Alchemy, constantly looking forward to dive deeper in this practice. Although most of my own magical practice has been folk/pagan based, I respect the scientific and philosophical background of alchemy Stavish has presented so well.

There isn’t any pretentious bias from what I’ve read so far. It’s not purely instructional either. If you respect the study of astrology and the study of the Qabalah teachings in Hermeticism (which is different than the Jewish Kabbalah or Jewish Mysticism), you’ll grasp the teachings from Stavish quickly. Astrologically, a lot I have read so far just clicked. Hopefully when I finish, I can do a full book review, but for now, I really like it.

If you’ve read this text already and have more you recommend, comment below. Let’s chat.

How many times have you tried to have a conversation with someone about their zodiac sign and they bluntly claim that their sign doesn’t describe them at all, and thus, it only seems like nonsense to them? Studying astrology takes an ample amount of time once you get past the sun sign.

Aspects “link the various parts of our nature and experience…[and] are shown as lines connecting planets from different parts of the chart. The position of the lines is determined by a set of rules, based on the number of degrees that separate the planets in the 360˚ chart circle,” (Gillett, 2011).

Since it’s Leo season, I think this is the optimal time to discuss love, family, and connection. The twin flame fascination with in the metaphysical community is…a bittersweet experience, I would say. What we all want in life boils down to genuine connection. Wouldn’t the perfect connection be with your twin flame? That is what most of us hope for…which exactly why I wrote these two articles, which have become my most popular:

Quit Obsessing Over Your Twin Flame

The twin flame experience is a strange one that can lead to quite the obsession if you’re intuitive enough to get an idea of who it may be and where they are. I wrote this article after reflecting on my own experiences with my twin flame where I DESPERATELY wanted that connection with them, but it was never enough. There was always something in the way and although it was extremely painful to admit it, the “something” that was always in the way came down to me…being in my own way.

“That happy ending, your twin flame being with you and the unconditional love of Spirit/Source/God/Divine/etc. is already there if you truly resonate with the twin flame process. All that’s left is affirming for yourself that you are worthy of that and knowing it will come without superfluous expectations.” (Authentikei, 2018) – Read the rest of the article here

The twin flame journey isn’t some strange search and rescue where you have to find your twin before it’s too late or a wonderful, mystical excuse to avoid your problems for a while. It’s really about you accepting you. Leo season is THE PERFECT time for this (but I do hope we all make it a year-round thing). But of course, some of us are still stuck on our twin flame journey being a romantic quest. We may use astrology to compare various Venus signs to see who we’re best compatible with and look out for “signs” based on our own observation (I’m only saying this because I’ve been there…). That’s why I wrote this article:

How Your Twin Flame Journey Affects Your Venus Sign

My Venus is in Aries, so let’s just look at that:

When love hits, it hits hard. You see something or someone you like and the impulse is often too strong to resist. The infatuation is intoxicating. The attraction makes you blind…How Your Twin Flame Journey Helps You: The Venus in Aries will explore the truth about commitment and settling down during the twin flame journey. Settling down isn’t always a ‘romantic’ thing. It’s about establishing a foundation for yourself. Stability married to excitement and stimulation helps the Venus in Aries understand belonging and faithfulness to themselves, their environment, and their social circle,” (Authentikei, 2018) – Read the rest here

That’s just a bit of it, so if you have the same Venus sign as me, I strongly suggest reading it. There’s a lot about astrology that isn’t as black-and-white as we want it to be, like life. The connection we want with others where everything just works out is something we really need to have patience for. If you feel like patience isn’t your strong suit, working on yourself is a good way to pass the time. If working on yourself sounds excruciating, remember that neglecting who you are and your self-worth just makes that connection you’re craving even harder to obtain. Sorry, not sorry, for the truth bomb.

It’s Leo season. Give yourself time to shine. Burn brightly. Those who love the warmth of your fire are the keepers, but don’t burn just for them. Burn for yourself. Stay lit.

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I was wrong.

The energy from the reason and this season isn’t about “positivity”. It’s about empowerment and confidence. We spent a good deal in Cancer season reflecting on many of the deep wounds our inner child went through with a cameo from father Capricorn to help us stand on our two feet again. Now it’s time to march on. The wounds are healing and we’re stronger now. It’s time to fucking show that off, but not for attention’s sake, for my sake.

Shit lol. My cynicism really likes canceling out self-worth wtf. This came to me after meditating with malachite and burning some sage in the space, by the way.

…And I’m not feeling it.

In my last post I discussed practicality and how that’s been helping me with the recent events that have happened with my room being flooded and all. I haven’t felt the need to try to push myself towards a positive look on everything, but rather just a productive view.

But my tarot reading and rune casting this morning basically said: “Yeah, a lot of inconveniences and obstacles have been coming up and it’s obviously aggravating…but it’s going to turn out for the better! There’s a lot of awesomeness ahead!” And I wish I could say I wasn’t trying to be cynical…but yeah. I thought the energy was so weird. I knew the message was genuine, but I really, really wasn’t feeling it. I spent most of the day wondering why I got such a high energy reading. Well, it’s Leo season. This is “believe in yourself” season. It’s “time to shine” season. Even though I’m a Leo Rising, my Aquarius energy outweighs it lol. And it’s just…strange.

Well, I got that out. Time to work.

I know it’s probably the full moon…but it’s mostly me. I’m excited to be near the end of my first draft, excited to start building an author platform, excited to create more and more things. I’m simply excited and restless, more on the inside than the outside. This energy building up inside needs to be regulated though regardless of my excitement. It’s good to ground yourself to recall the bigger picture. Doing this stabilizes you and builds self-trust, especially in the face of fear.

Oh my goddess, I’m pumped.

Being a writer is the best.

Witchy Side Note: This full moon energy is crazy! Sagittarius and Capricorn influences along with that north node in Cancer. It’s pretty significant!