It Was Tempting To Give Up On My Novel – [Just Me]

I think this is a common thing to happen to most writers. You get to that weird middle ground of your novel and wonder if any of it is even worth it. For me, I was worried about my poor habit of overthinking. In my Violet Project Diaries on Vocal, I mentioned that I had to delete some characters and parts of my novel because it was “too meta”. Although I do want my work to be thought provoking, I don’t want to seem like I’m trying to hard or that I bit off more than I can chew. I’m trying to stay humble during this process, but I took a step past humility and wandered into hopelessness. It was tempting to just let it all go and figure out what I “really” wanted in life, but… I mean come on, I’ve spent over 2 years on this thing. Even though I have been thinking critically about the audience’s reception to my work, I’m not going to just drop it because I can’t figure out EXACTLY how audiences want their story told.

The last diary entry got to me. I was going in circles about the concept of karma and trying to figure out why we connect to that concept in storytelling. I was unsure if I was writing my story “correctly” regarding the karmic justice thing, but I already know I won’t know if it’s working or not unless I finish it to the best of my ability and then get it out there.

Writing the second draft has been one hell of a ride, but I’m not giving up. Please check out my Violet Project Diaries on Vocal where I discuss my workflow and the writing resources I stumble across. I’m trying to post as much as possible throughout the week.

First Draft Progress – 16 Days Until Deadline

We’re closing in on two weeks left. 🙂 I’m stoked.

Yesterday, I was pretty tired. I ended up thinking about the upcoming novels in my series, which led to falling down a rabbit hole of…mainstream fashion and beauty drama (Yeah, the James Charles nonsense caught my eye…). I’ll be adding that to my list of not-goth confessions, but it technically was research for the third novel.

Today is going to be a burst of writing glory. Time to grab a cup of coffee and fucking rock this shit. I’ll update my progress this evening.