I’m taking some time to reflect today for the sake of making sure I take steps on the path that’s right for me. The video above has great meditation music for aura cleansing. I’ve been enjoying it anyway since it’s subtle and ambient. It was great for my morning divination today.
Even though I’m a novice at studying alchemy, I want to discuss the intro to alchemy text I’ve been studying and what other reads are on my list. Then I’ll share what my fictional reads currently are and how they’ve helped me with my own writing. More to come.
I’m taking some time to reflect today for the sake of making sure I take steps on the path that’s right for me. The video above has great meditation music for aura cleansing. I’ve been enjoying it anyway since it’s subtle and ambient. It was great for my morning divination today. Be well.
I needed to share a part of my prose poem “Prose of The Fool” again because… well, remember my earlier post saying that I’m bad at taking my own advice? Yeah. I needed to reread this because I am embarking in something kind of new to me and I’m terrified, but I must trust. “When … Continue reading Be A Fool And Trust – [Poetry]
Yesterday, I had to accept two things. The first was that I suck at taking my own advice initially, but then it sinks in after I get over my panic attacks and myself (haha!). Second, I really want to write articles and blog full-time, so I’m going to just do it. As I work on my own dark arts, I want to write more about other dark or gothic works that inspire me; painters, writers, musicians, films! And I’m going to infuse that with my mental health writing and metaphysical interests, of course. It’s too important to me. This is what I’m going to do for the rest of my life, create and be inspired to create so here I go. No more random gaps of silence from me. It’s time to be brave.
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Chess is one of my favorite games. I like strategy games because your plan is only as good as your result, but no matter what happens, you learn something. Even when I lose, I find it thrilling. It’s still annoying, but it’s always exciting to learn something new. When I play chess, usually against a computer telling me that every other move I make is a “mistake” (and then often win later lol), I get to swallow the harsh reality that you can’t control everything, but if you learn to merge adaptability with backup plans, success has a higher chance of finding you.
I am aesthete who loves it when emotions take the lead, but logical strategy games are really grounding for me. Playing games that demand my attention and intellectual power prove to me that I can achieve some pretty stellar focus (which is a triumph for someone with ADHD). The main function of grounding is to help you live in the present and increase confidence in who you are, so yeah. That happens when I play chess.
I just wanted to share that since this whole week has been emotionally stressful for me, but there are moments when I look back and realize how emotionally resilient I am thanks to my logic balancing things out. I’m sure many people have moments like this and we should definitely appreciate them more. You’re stronger than you know.
Whether you accept it or not, we are in a time of great change. Usually, I get tired of hearing that because change is a constant thing no matter what’s happening within or around us, but it can be more in your face when you’re entering a new chapter in your life and it’s simultaneous with a global event.
I think a lot about death in its literal and figurative sense. I’m sure the bulk of us have due to the virus, but for me I wonder about it daily and it’s never been out of fear, but out of sadness and something else that I can only describe as bittersweet and peaceful. Death shouldn’t be discussed nonchalantly. It’s a crux in my artistry and my mystic life, so I can only be respectful.
As the reality of death is closing in for some, others are embracing it, and very few are letting it guide them through an overwhelming transformation. There’s not much more you can do than let grief flail inside you. Let the tears fall, lean on a trusted shoulder, say goodbye, welcome old and new love to bring you comfort, and most importantly, rest.
My heart goes out to many with the hopes that my own creativity can bring a kind of healing to those who share my dark aesthetic. I am in worry and grief too; art helps me accept it and I hope it will help others too.
We’re in a storm of changes aren’t we? We’re used to emotional roller coasters, but some of us have plateaued in a strange acceptance and caution, trying to avoid sinking into apathy, nihilism, or the like. That’s how I feel anyway. Trying to keep my head above water while swimming out into an ocean of unknown situations.
To break that plateau, I’ve been told the best thing to do is dive below the surface and trust myself to adapt to what’s to come. By that, I mean remembering what is significant in my life, expanding upon why it means so much, and let that be the fire that keeps me going.
I went from a water metaphor to a fire metaphor…
By the way, my short story will be published this week. More info coming soon.