Embracing Your Weird And Respecting You Art – The Creative Introvert Podcast

“The reason Harvey is so relevant I feel, is because I’m interested in the sense that many creative introverts I know have, which is that we’re somehow on the outside, that we don’t fit in, that we’re not approved of by society, that we’re somehow doing “it” wrong (whatever it is.) Just that sense of otherness.

And that can make living the life of a creative and actually fulfilling our true dreams and pursuing our true calling/path VERY difficult.”

Cat Rose Neligan – “5 Tips for Embracing Your Weird + Making Great Work” – The Creative Introvert

The Creative Introvert is my new favorite podcast. I finally found someone who gets it and dedicates her time to letting other introverts know they’re not alone when it comes to dealing with the mess of anxiety while also being a creative spirit. Please check out the podcast in the link below. There are some very good points on respect one’s art and themselves in this episode and I truly appreciate Cat for sharing her insight.


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Psychology Has Inspired Me To Try NaNoWriMo (and I’m really excited) – [Just Me/News]

Hello, My head has been stuck in the books lately and when that happens blog posts seem to gradually fade, haha. Between studying, blogging, and my other music projects, I’m missing my novel and the VPD entries again. So I thought maybe I should take NaNoWriMo seriously and see how far I get. Once Samhain … Continue reading Psychology Has Inspired Me To Try NaNoWriMo (and I’m really excited) – [Just Me/News]

Mercury Retrograde Killed My Perfectionism (Sort of) – Just Me

I didn’t really notice the Mercury in Scorpio retrograde energy until yesterday and I could only express how the energy messed with me in a silly Tumblr post. Yeah, so that happened and the relief from perfectionism just from the academic aspect has bled into the music aspect as well. I’m so freaking close to … Continue reading Mercury Retrograde Killed My Perfectionism (Sort of) – Just Me

I’m Awake Again – [Poetry]

High standards bent my neck, forcing me to look at false mirrors; a blink is all it took. Then with closed my eyes, I breathed so deep my neck relaxed, insecurities fell asleep. I’m awake again.

What “The Shadow” Really Is – [Video]

YouTuber TripWhip discusses his own shadow experience and hits the nail on the head with what the shadow truly reveals to you.

Read – “What is Shadow Work? – Metaphysical and Occult Terms 101” to learn more about working with your shadow self.

My shadow has taught me…

…that they never existed in the name of evil or to make the “darkness” seem evil. The shadow is the part of us that’s trying to tell us what we need to be our real selves. It’s a process, but a worthwhile one where you do feel better about revelations about yourself. Shadow work isn’t meant for you to find the “enlightenment” destination, where you understand everything and you’re supposedly just “done” learning about yourself. It’s an ongoing journey that can be taken in gratitude if you humble yourself and listen to your shadow.

Comment below if you have any insights or questions about shadow work.


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Embracing Your Weird And Respecting You Art – The Creative Introvert Podcast

“The reason Harvey is so relevant I feel, is because I’m interested in the sense that many creative introverts I know have, which is that we’re somehow on the outside, that we don’t fit in, that we’re not approved of by society, that we’re somehow doing “it” wrong (whatever it is.) Just that sense of … Continue reading Embracing Your Weird And Respecting You Art – The Creative Introvert Podcast

Ghost – [Poetry]

You don’t know this about me, you flirting, busy bee, but I’m hurt by the ghost you’ve become. Haunted for years by shallowness, not that you are, but I’m so distressed by the ephemeral fading you’ve done in my life as a picture, out as a memory. Back in again, posing so charmingly, far from … Continue reading Ghost – [Poetry]

Hours – [Poetry]

In hours and increments I realize your distance is no longer sentenced to a timezone away. For hours I search, recalling your flirts fading in the spurt of my grief and dismay. Wherever you are, Angel, I’ll wait again, for hours upon hours upon hours still. In these hours upon hours, I’m longing. Sour at … Continue reading Hours – [Poetry]

Archetypes 101 – The Magician – [Video]

This is a video from the YouTube channel XELASOMA, who I cam across recently. I’ve been diving into the Jungian archetype meanings after taking a test and doing some research specifically for my novel and the VPD articles. I think this youtuber explained The Magician so precisely and eloquently. I hope you enjoy his video and subscribe.

Let me know what you think. What archetype do you resonate with?

What is a daemon or demon? – Metaphysical and Occult Terms 101

Demon/Daemon/Daimon: “Lesser spirit or god. A devil in Christian mythology. Literal meaning for Demon – “Replete with wisdom.” Derived from the Greek ‘daimon’ meaning divine power” – S. Connolly (1997-2006) – The Complete Book of Demonolatry. The Stoic understanding of daemon is not so different from the Socratic understanding of the daimonion, or the divine … Continue reading What is a daemon or demon? – Metaphysical and Occult Terms 101

Do Empaths and Narcissists Attract What They Lack? – [Video]

One thing we empaths seem to have in common is that we attract narcissists. In the past I would’ve said that attracting and keeping the narcissistic, manipulative, emotionally draining people in my life wasn’t intentional, but I’m not sure how true that really was. October is my shadow work month where I get really f**king … Continue reading Do Empaths and Narcissists Attract What They Lack? – [Video]

Artists Who Inspired My To Try Digital Painting and My New Dark Poetry Project

Recently I posted an update of my recent project on Instagram.

It’s not too bad so far… I’m loving that while I paint, I get into kind of a zone, but when I get uneasy or unsure, listening to other artists and finding other artists helped me put things into a more productive perspective. Let me share what I’ve found.

First one, Ethan Becker. This guy is a goof, but he gave really good advice.

He is totally against drawing from imagination. Instead, you should reference and “steal” from other artists you admire, which is any art that makes you go, “Yes! I want to do that!” In the past, my otaku (anime loving) self really wanted to work on the anime/manga style, but it screwed me and my confidence up so bad. Some people do amazing anime art, but I am just not one of those people mostly because some of the styles even from my favorite artists, wasn’t what I really wanted to do. It took a while for the real artist in me to dig out of the pile of manga and let me know that they wanted to be more of an illustrator so they could create work that was more conceptual or evoked a story/ambience.

One artist who really caught my attention and lit that spark under my ass was Nan Fe , a dark fantasy/horror artist from Singapore.

love lockdown by Nan Fe

Most of Nan Fe’s art has a dark mood that is sensual, macabre, gloomy, mystical; I could go on, but these are the moods I want to embody in my work. I am IN LOVE with her art. The piece she made here is based on the COVID19 crisis. I sense so much doom and vulnerability from this piece combined with a genuine desire to reconnect again. Love it.

Another artist who inspires me and is actually a new discovery while I was looking for references for my new project is Denis Forkas Kostromitin

Death and the Maiden by Denis Forkas

There’s something about Denis’s art that gives off almost an Italian renaissance atmosphere braided with metaphysical and occult symbolism. Studying Denis’s art helped be develop a better understanding of value, mood, texture, and even realizing that the cliche “less is more” actually works. This article, displays more of his work.

After I found a few artists that inspire, the next question was, “Where do I start?” I’ve never been much of a painter, but always wanted to try. Sketching was more my schtick, so going out of my comfort zone was intimidating until I found another art teacher on YouTube: Marco Bucci

I watched a few of his “10 Minutes To Better Painting” series and felt less and less afraid with each lesson. I was doing less overthinking and doing more critical thinking. Marco really is an excellent teacher with a very “teacher” sense of humor, but I couldn’t be more grateful that I came across him.

Since finding all these artists, painting hasn’t been excruciating. Now I’m just exploring and learning.

Poetry as Painting Prompts

After I published my horror short story “Autonomy Bleeds Black” (Available on Kindle, Barnes and Noble, Apple Books, Scribd, and more) I really wanted to create some illustration for it, but I wasn’t confident. This is as far as I got and I never shared the completion of the work because I changed the story a bit.

So, to build up my confidence, I’m using some of my dark poetry pieces as painting prompts. Like I said, I’ve been having a lot of fun learning and exploring painting rather than pressuring myself and hope to share the journey with you all.

Thanks for reading. Be well and if you’re a budding or experienced artist, comment below, I would love any advice or artist recommendations.

The Egg and Andy Weir – [Video]

The Egg is an extraordinary video that you just need to see for yourself. The animation, done by Kurzgesagt, is inspired by a short story by Andy Weir. It’s received over 7 million views in four days and honestly that really makes me happy. This is an interesting perspective on existentialism and how our many perceptions on life and death seem to come together.

Andy Weir is also the author of the book-to-film novel The Martian and the novel Artemis.

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Jen Sincero and The Lack Mentality

I am in LOVE with an audiobook right now: “You’re A Badass at Making Money” by Jen Sincero. I’m sorry if you’re reading this as someone who is up to their ears with self-help books, but as someone who has swam through various self-help books hoping to find something that has scratched me where I itched, I promise you…this one’s a keeper.

I wrote an article called “The ‘Lack Mentality’ is Killing Us”, which was inspired by my own lack mentality and the lack mentality from the people around me. Misery became our currency, when really it’s what I called “a slow, subtle suicide,” (Authentikei 2018). The main points of my article were:

  • Dropping expectations will help you more in the long run. (This doesn’t mean lower your expectations. It means let go of the unrealistic ones that stress you out and don’t force yourself to be positive. Instead, face your reality objectively.)
  • You are not worthless, useless, shameful, or horrible. You have value that supersedes your monetary and/or social status.
  • If the dis-ease is present, face it. You do not deserve to suffer.
  • Taking care of your needs is a process. There is no get-rich-quick or solve-all-problems solution, but every step you take towards what you need is evidence of hope.
  • Replace satisfying those impulsive acts with appreciating what you have and investing in that by applying what you have to your reality.

Listening to Jen Sincero’s book has made me ecstatic. While listening to the audiobook, I would be yelling “YES! FINALLY SOMEONE GETS IT!” out loud. I’ve already disturbed some family members, especially those who overheard the narrator saying “you’re one powerful motherfucker” while I was listening to it in the car, but Sincero’s book is ANYTHING but disturbing. It’s a fucking wake-up call. It’s something I’ve wanted to scream for so long. It’s made me wake up over things I thought I understood but really didn’t.

I’d like to share a few of her quotes that have hit me HARD so far:

“The walls of your comfort zone are lovingly decorated with your lifelong collection of favorite excuses.” 

“What comes out of your mouth comes into your life.” 

“Time wasted rationalizing the mediocre could be time spent creating the magnificent.”

“When you don’t investigate what’s going on with your words, thoughts, and beliefs, you risk stumbling through life on autopilot.” 

“Money is only a tool. It will take you wherever you wish, but it will not replace you as the driver.” 

“There is no lack of things to be grateful for if you remember to pay attention.” 

“You can choose to be a victim to your circumstances or take responsibility for how you choose to perceive them.” 

There is such a big difference between agreeing with these statements and actually living these statements. I would add so many more, but I’ll end up copying and pasting the whole book. Her book reminds me of the last paragraph in the “Poor Application of Support and Resources” section of my article:

Challenge the Illusion: Challenge the lack mentality with a mentality of abundance and gratitude. What do you have and how can you apply that to help you in the present moment? If you find it doesn’t satisfy all of your problems, address how what you have helps with one or a few of the issues. That counts.”

I want to address a slight difference between myself and Sincero. When I wrote this article, I was still perceiving money and being rich in general as something that wasn’t that important in life (even though I do financial abundance spells almost every month). I was fine with receiving money, but I never felt comfortable loving money. Loving money was the equivalent of greed. Yeah, it’s not. Sincero describes money as not just our currency that makes the world go round, but it’s also a type of energy flowing throughout the universe reminding us we have a right to be wealthy and enjoy it. You’ll only be greedy if you choose to be greedy. Some of us have very generous and philanthropic ideas that we would love to make into reality if we had the funding. Sincero encourages the reader throughout to constantly keep in mind of all the awesomeness you can do with money (which doesn’t all have to be philanthropic, by the way. Treat yourself is definitely a thing too and can be harmless act without being greedy).

So when I look back at my article, yes her and I address the “lack mentality” in very similar ways, but I must say, she’s taken it a step further and exalted the abandonment of the “lack mentality” to a place of complete badassery.

I have to share one more quote from her:

“Your heart is the most powerful muscle in your body. Do what it says.”

Seriously, either buy or listen to this book right now.

Try out Audible. This would be a great first pick.

Gothic Rock/Symphonic Rock Bands I Found Today

To find some music inspiration for music production in the future, I went hunting for some bands. Some bands I knew and some bands are new to me. I’d like to share what I found if you’re into this kind of genre.

Okay, well I already knew about EPICA, but I didn’t know the lead singer was a fan of Attack on Titan so that’s NEAT!

Lacuna Coil is an old favorite. I think my friends like this band more than I did when they became more popular. Their album Delirium though is extraordinary! Blood, Tears, and Dust is fantastic.

House of Shame is a great too.

Okay, for a few artists who are new to me.

So, LACRIMOSA is a gothic rock/darkwave band that really reminds me of older “trad” gothic rock bands, which is spectacular. It’s the kind of music you want to listen to when you really feel dead inside (it’s just satisfying to find music that really captures that).

This band is less goth and more symphonic rock. Their music is truly mystical, I’m in love with the lead singer’s vocals, and I’m hoping to hear more music from them too. Lunatica (which by the way, they really missed the chance to name their band Lu-NAUT-ica…) has music that reminds me of high fantasy stories. Their newest album, New Shores, really seems to capture a steampunk-like story. I’m all for it.

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I already knew about Akiko Shikata and although they’re neither goth nor symphonic rock, I want to recommend this group if you like glorious, folk inspired music. There’s something really heavenly about it. Hard to describe, just listen.

And now for something completely different. Dremora is a deathcore band. I really liked the lyrics to this song. Apparently this band makes quite a few songs based off The Elder Scrolls games, like Skyrim and Oblivion.

I already knew about Blackbriar, but if this song isn’t witchy AF. I listen to Blackbriar on and off, but this is my new favorite song. In addition to…

…this song. This I’m sure is about two sister witches…or they’re lesbians, I don’t know. I’m fine with either story. I think for these lyrics lesbian witches makes more sense. I think the song is melodically beautiful.

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My last discovery was Erutan, who is such a precious gift to this world. Her music based off of literature is great, but I recently learned that I listened to one of her older songs on Spotify a while ago. She has a wonderful voice and plays multiple instruments. Very mystical and fantasy like. I like her song “Tarts” too.

Hope you like my taste in music.

Need Help Writing Dialogue For Your Novel? Follow These Tips from Jenna Moreci

First, let me just say I LOVE Jenna. Someone shared one of her videos on Tumblr and I just fell in love with the way she broke down her writing tips. She’s very frank and incredibly open-minded. I like watching a video from her or other authortubers before I jump into my own novel to get my head in the game. Enjoy!

Also, please consider checking out her book The Savior’s Champion and her other book Eve: The Awakening. I’ve added both to my reading list on Amazon. I’m ready to see her work for myself. FYI if you have Kindle Unlimited, Eve: The Awakening is free to read.

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