What To Expect During Each Planetary Retrograde – [Article]

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What To Expect During Each Planetary Retrograde

Astronomically, a planet going retrograde means the planet is appearing to be moving backwards because of retrograde motion. Astrologically, a planet going retrograde means that whatever sign or house that planet rules over is going to be strongly affected by that planet’s retrograde motion. The retrograde energy of a planet usually enhances their opposing astrological meanings. In 2020, we are up to our necks in retrogrades turning our personal realities upside down, so I figured it would be helpful to summarize the meaning of each retrograde

To The Writer Ashamed of Resting – The Violet Project Diaries – Entry 7

To The Writer Ashamed of Resting

It doesn’t matter how old you are, fellow writer. You are in charge of your life and one of the ways you take charge is through writing, self-expression, analysis, arguments, or storytelling. You are the one who decided that writing is an essential part of your lifestyle, so why aren’t you living in a way to ensure that writing remains a priority? Beating yourself up over a rest day during an entire week of work is preventing you from living like a writer. Like I said, you’re in charge, so when you decide to overwork yourself, you’re also deciding to sabotage yourself. You do this because you’re ashamed, afraid, and guilty, but I want you to remember that when you’re in those flow moments, where you’re just inspired to write and the words just come, that is when you’re dignified, fearless, creating without regret.

BLM/LGBTQ+ Page Updated – [News]

On my BLM/LGBTQ+ page, I added another Google Doc link of a LONG list of petitions and more resources. You are welcome to copy, paste, and share the link wherever you feel is needed. Please if anything sign those petitions, most of them being on change.org.

Edit 06/30/20 @12:31pm: I’ve removed Ads from the BLM/LGBTQ+ page. I apologize if the ads being there came off as if I wanted to profit from the situation.

This is the Tumblr post I found the resources on. You can access the Google Doc this way as well.

So Much On My Mind – [Just Me]

Hello,

It’s been a good work day. I’ll release a new VPD tomorrow. I guess I wanted to just express what’s been on my mind lately. There’s been the comfort in stagnancy that I’ve been holding onto and it’s a side of me I don’t like. That side feels like an older version of myself that has such a lack of belief and lack of rationality when it comes to making choices. Like many, I have turned a blind eye on my own strength, but will tap into it for the sake of validation from others or creating this concept more founded in fantasy than logic that my life purpose will miraculously make sense.

Today, I’m proud of myself for noticing that there were times the realization of my own strength led to incredible accomplishments. I have a Masters in Liberal Studies with a concentration in Creative Writing when some guiding voices nudged me out of the Political Science courses and into the English courses as an undergrad. Through that journey I embraced my love for writing fiction, poetry, and essays. Now I’m reflecting again, those guiding voices being more metaphysical than in person this time, feeling the call to advance my gifts as a mystic into a tangible career. I was unsure about whether I wanted to really talk about this on here because there’s still so much to plan and prepare for, but this is Authentikei, right? I’m supposed to be authentic. I think I would make a great personality psychologist. I’ve come this far trusting in my psychic and intuitive abilities to guide me to write about metaphysics and literature, but I haven’t considered applying my abilities to psychology, which has been a love of mine for a very long time. I’m sort of aspiring to be like Carl Jung, who was not just a clinical psychologist, but also a lover of metaphysics, occultist, and mystic in his own right. Can’t I do that? Especially as a writer?

So yeah. That’s a thing. It’s a thing that feels very, very right to pursue. We’ll see what happens. This doesn’t mean I stop any of this. I have to write and working on my projects almost every day now or I’m just lost, but I definitely feel I have the capability to handle advancing my education and applying that achievement to my current career. What would you think of a personality psychologist who wrote dark fantasy and poetry, did literary analyses for fun, and researched metaphysical/occult topics? What kind of career would come out of that do you think?

Do You Feel Like Your Life Is A Lie? – [Just Me]

Hey there,

It’s been a rough week, but I know many of us are feeling the worldwide tension waxing and waning everyday. I think many of the tensions stem from realization. The coronavirus itself shined a light on how well or how horribly our governing bodies take our welfare seriously. In addition to that, we’re reevaluating our relationships with others for the sake of sustaining our moral compass. We’re being bombarded with truth bombs. It’s a lot. Shattering even. I have artistic outlets that helped me cope with what’s going on, but now I’m becoming less concerned about coping and more focused on increasing my awareness and mindfulness.

This whole “my life is a lie” mentality has me thinking about how to pursue living a truthful life more aggressively. From the external sense, that comes down to educating ourselves, thinking more critically about cultures worldwide, and accepting what we do and don’t have control over. Many people have already taken steps towards that mindset, which is great. From the internal sense, addressing how life has lied to us is really bothering me and I think that’s because it makes me more aware of how powerless I was swimming in the lies and believing it was the truth. This is the kind of crap that fuels my trust issues and my raging sense of justice, but again, this internal exploration requires a greater understanding and accountability of the self, not for rage and fear to takeover.

I’ve learned many new things about myself this week alone, things that I never bothered to work through until it surfaced up during this emotional week. I love reflecting through divination, meditation, and the arts. Now I’m pushing myself to be more transparent with resources founded in psychological, historical, and scientific studies because that’s how I’ll best understand my mindset and my behaviors. I believe studying topics like the power of cultural influence, types of parenting, the habit of stereotyping or generalizing labeled groups, and historical power shifts with greater seriousness and then integrating those studies with a more personalized, yet open perspective will help us ground ourselves. There’s a kind of contagious obsession with associations, status, and reputation that’s falsifying our inner truths and discouraging us from authenticity. Personally, I feel like growing in a westernized society detached me from the concept of allowing myself to be nurtured as a human. Instead I feel sculpted and groomed to be a complacent member of a labeled group in an apathetic society and culture.

I feel like my life is a lie because the whole definition of being human and simply being was presented to me with the intent to control me. I don’t make that statement out of fear or paranoia, but out of acceptance. I want to be part of the flow of progression, encouraging the prioritization of people and planet. To be clear, I’m not going into save the world or save humanity mode because I’ve also accepted that there are people who thrive from the way society is now and they will make conscious choices to maintain their privileges. It would be self-destructive and toxic to continue to fight those people as it compromises my own welfare.

If you feel like your life has been a lie and these realizations about what’s around you and what’s within you is forcing you to evolve, don’t resist the progression. Chose mindfulness. Strive for more fulfilling moments. We can’t be lukewarm or apathetic about our life choices anymore.

Character Design and Conspiracy – The Violet Project Diaries – Entry 6

Character Design and Conspiracy

I was talking with a friend the other day about needing to watch more or read more crime and mystery pieces and study how the “clues” lead the audience and the characters from one thing to another. I know my novel has a lot of conspiracy innuendo, but conspiracy can be really obvious real quick. We’re used to seeing a government organization, a religious organization, a secret organization, or an academic organization have players scheming in the shadows or plotting in broad daylight. Though obvious, I think the intrigue maintains itself if the end goal of the conspiracy isn’t so obvious and who immediately comes to mind is Lovecraft.

Uneasiness – [Just Me]

It’s very fortunate that there are at least some businesses that understand the financial struggles during the pandemic and are being easier on bill payments, but I have to admit, sometimes the pressure of paying bills creeps up on me especially when I keep in mind that it won’t be like this forever.

I am so determined to make a living blogging, writing about writing, and as an author along with mixing my artistic and musical skills in there. I know it can happen. I believe in myself to make it happen. More than anything, I understand that it’s going to take time for it to happen, so truly, that creeping pressure is that little voice in my head saying “Do I have enough time?”

It’s a bit cliche to say that I have all the time in the world or that I have my whole life ahead of me. I’m 27 and I’m proud of myself for making it here after some close calls in the past. It’s eating away at me that the work that I do now, as fulfilling as it is, isn’t bringing in enough. I do have a transcribing job on the side for extra cash, but I worry that job is going to take over my life when bills and responsibilities build higher and higher. The best way I can counter that worry is to build myself and my work up higher than the bills and the responsibilities, keeping my mindset focused on manifesting the writer lifestyle I long for.

You know what I keep asking myself? “Is it really humble to act like I don’t want to be famous and wealthy?” Because I think what I really mean is that I don’t want to be like the greedy, selfish one percent that’s hoarding all the wealth, but I do want prosperity and recognition. If I’m going to have a mindset that’s driven to be a successful writer, I should just accept that fame and wealth wouldn’t be so bad. I do want my life to be private and have my work portray my transparency. I want to have enough wealth to maintain a prosperous future and give generously to the arts and charities. Actually, one of my pipedreams is to have a like a Museum of the Dark Arts (but of course I’ll call it something else so Rowling doesn’t sue me lol), which would be a museum of the darker, macabre, and horror inspiring works of various mediums from the past and in modern times that helped so many of us understand our inner demons rather than wrestle with them. I want the funds to make that successful and affordable.

Wow, thinking about that made me feel so calm. The unease is gone.