A Once Chaotic Past – [Just Me]

During the break I give myself between studying psychology and working on my creative projects, I was reflecting on how much freedom I’m currently blessed with. My last post was about how perfectionism was haunting me and helping me again, and that felt good to share because it’s a matter of health that isn’t paid much attention to. It can be a very terrifying form of entrapment, especially because it’s an illusion. But today? There’s just freedom. I can breathe between my studies and my work without rushing to satisfy someone else’s schedule. I can alter my calendar and make plans for my study sessions without forcing myself to cram information or blow something off and hope luck will be on my side. There’s flexibility now and adaptability married with my responsibilities. I know the starving artist life doesn’t appeal to many and is often ridiculed if you’re not rich and famous. Who cares? I wish everyone could live a life without the starving and with more of the mindfulness and calm that comes with the artist mentality. The idealist, INFP that I am wishes more people could live the life they want and abandon the life others try to push upon them. We are capable of so much awesomeness when we aren’t forced to ignore the beauty around us. We’re capable of even more when we’re gifted with clarity, seeing what is and isn’t working for us. That’s a practice we have to chose to adopt, I suppose. Not everyone is as privileged as I am in this moment, so I’ll do my best to never complain about it.

In this breath, I am so humbled and light.

For what it’s worth, I hope you are well. It will get better.

Inspiration for “Sleep” by My Chemical Romance – Cover Song Update – [Music/Artist Recognition]

Producing my cover of “Sleep” by MCR is going well. I wanted to share the videos I found that have inspired what kind of tone I’m planning for the song, but I’m going to start with Dade Brayant, a pianist cover artist who covers some our favorite emo, punk, metal, and rock bands from the […]

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I’m going to focus on music for now – [News / Just Me]

So, I’ve had a lot of projects in the past that are still in motion: a novel series, a short story series, poetry collections, self-portraiture, and music (cover songs and original music). But I have to be real with myself. I have to face the fact that it has been so difficult getting content out […]

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Necromancy and Veneficium – [Occult Study]

First off, hope you all had a splendid holiday season. During the break I rested for the most part and then got into studying necromancy and veneficium (the poison path), which have been personal practices for my craft and research material for my novel series. Disclaimer: The following is not medical or psychological advice. I’m […]

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