Rage Writing

Rage writing is when something angers you so much, you grab the writing method closest to you and start creating a story based on the event that you’re pissed at.

It’s good fun, yes, but I find it most fulfilling when I reread what I’ve created and reflected upon the theme later. The reflection makes the ending and details in between very clear and solidifies the theme.

Rage writing is also a great way to make sure you write more frequently, have a healthy outlet for your emotion, and process that anger. I’m not saying you’ll turn out being a better person than you were before or that you should try to write a happy ending to your rage-written story; but I am saying, at least for myself, that this is a satisfactory method of expression and it’s going to feel damn good to publish it in time.

The After -[Poem]

Under a blanket of white

starts the eternal sleep;

A trance with transportation

towards a new dimension deep.

As I release my shell,

my soul I get to keep.

A new journey birthed

from the experience I reaped.

It’s easier to hope for nothing, yet I eagerly embrace the unknown something.

Novel Progress and Confidence Update – [Writing Advice]

So after some work and some rest, I’ve been able to progress in character development and the lore of my world. I’m stuck on vampires again, but temporarily. One of my characters is my vampire and an exorcist. I’m basing her spirit work skills on exorcism techniques they used in ancient Japan.

For the record, working on a novel isn’t doing the same thing every day, at least for me. To keep the mind active and the inspiration flowing, I think it’s okay to take different approaches to your work. It’s a great confidence booster too when you create a different way of developing your story and it leads to progress, but even when you don’t make the breakthrough you hoped for, taking in that experience is a progress in itself.

My struggles with anxiety have surprisingly inspired me to fight for a confident attitude towards my work and myself. Shadow work during this time (shadow work is a self-reflection process many pagans/witches do through divination or other means, in case you don’t know) has helped so much. I did start a daily Instagram posting of one of my shadow work methods, but now I’m behind because of some mental health issues on my end. I’m still trucking on though and wanted to say that things are still moving forward.

To end, a little advice from a teabag tassel I got yesterday: The purpose of life is to know yourself, love yourself, trust yourself, and be yourself.

Exposition and Clarity

Today I spent a part of the day keeping clarity with the exposition in mind. The importance of clarity really slapped me across the face today while editing. I do like it when the beginning of the story gives a good punch, but audiences get sour about the punch if they don’t have enough information as to why they were hit so hard (by the way, I don’t know why I’m using violence as a metaphor…maybe I just like it when stories make me feel something).

It reminds me of a time I tried to show a friend of mine an anime series that I thought was cool and she couldn’t get into it even with all of its action and mysterious characters because she said there was no one to care about. I was bitter at first thinking she just couldn’t keep track, but after discussing with it further, her points were based around the pacing of the first episode. Granted, with anime it’s a little different (we otaku have the rule of at least giving a show 2-3 episodes before you completely drop it), but if the pilot of a weekly anime series is airing, the writers and producers should be considerate of what will catch their audiences and keep them itching for more. That’s an important attribute of the exposition; there should be a character, an event, or some detail that makes you wonder about the bigger picture and persuade you to stay for the whole story.

The Backwards Law and The Wheel of Fortune – [Article]

“If we are to be fully human, fully alive and aware, it seems that we must be willing to suffer for our pleasures.”

Suffering is associated with living, just as pain is associated with being alive. We wouldn’t call ourselves human or alive without experiencing these things, but we also wouldn’t say we were living if we were constantly in a state of suffering. The Wheel of Fortune is a reminder that fortune and misfortune cycles throughout our lives. Our control is located in our responses to it

Read the rest here…

Relapse – [News]

So, I have some news and some other news.

First, another article is on the way and I’m really going to do my best to make them more frequent. Some articles, like this upcoming one, will be more of a sharing of resources I found intertwined with my own insight on the matter. The next article will briefly discuss The Backwards Law by Alan Watts and how I connect the analysis of it provided by the YouTube channel Pursuit of Wonder with the meaning behind the Wheel of Fortune Card in tarot. So that’s neat!! The other kind of articles I’ll be sharing will be longer and more enriched in research (basically what I’ve been doing). The next one of those is the literary analysis of the first Hermetic Principle.

The next bit of news is that I’ve accepted I’m having a bit of a relapse with my mental health. I’ve been dealing with a work-life imbalance for months now and I’ve finally had to address it to others. The hardest part about this is other people don’t really understand the work I do with Authentikei, so my part-time job doesn’t seem like a big deal compared to a full-time shift. My mental and emotional health makes it very difficult for me to work like the average American that can bust out a 9 to 5 throughout the week (even with all the conditioning I had during childhood lol). That’s why freelance writing is perfect for me. Even though I don’t receive a lot of sympathy and understanding sometimes, I’m grateful my inner truth finally burst through and pointed out my current dilemma. With that being said, I may disappear sometimes, but relapses like these inspire me like you wouldn’t believe, which means more content! I know that messages about regressions in mental health are usually disheartening, but I’m actually sharing this to express happiness. The wheel of fortune is turning.

You’ll know what I mean once I share the article.

Thanks for reading and be well. Take care of yourselves.

Rewriting – Second Draft – Session 4 and Article Update

I’ve sectioned off where the range of my exposition in my first draft and have decided to just read and edit it. Keeping it simple is helping me see the big picture of the novel series as a whole because the exposition is where the audience decides whether they want to invest time in the world and its characters or not. So I’m trying to read like a member of the audience, edit like a editor/publisher that wants the story to be enticing enough to sell, and that helps me brainstorm as an author that’s going to stick to their guns when it comes to themes of the story, yet flexible enough to make the changes needed. This is my mindset anyway. I even have a notebook set aside where I’m writing down my criticisms as an audience member. It’s helping a lot.

As for my article on the Hermetic Principles, I’ve realized that I want to do a literary analysis of all the principles and I know it’ll be fun, but I’m also afraid…because I keep leaning towards deconstructionism for my method of analysis…which is INSANE. They’re paradoxical enough. We’ll see. I’ll stay in touch.

I’m just glad I had the energy to work on both of these things today, even if it was for a short while. I’m so exhausted…