Lughnasadh – July 31st/August 1st

Celebrate your power today. Harvest all the progress you’ve made so far in this year and years before. You may light a candle or make a bonfire today and tomorrow; just don’t forget to tap into the fire inside yourself. Let it grow, let it shine, let it burn. Let it keep you warm as daylight wanes.

To those in the Southern Hemisphere, have a blessed Imbolc. The light on your side is growing. Welcome it.

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Jen Sincero and The Lack Mentality

I am in LOVE with an audiobook right now: “You’re A Badass at Making Money” by Jen Sincero. I’m sorry if you’re reading this as someone who is up to their ears with self-help books, but as someone who has swam through various self-help books hoping to find something that has scratched me where I itched, I promise you…this one’s a keeper.

I wrote an article called “The ‘Lack Mentality’ is Killing Us”, which was inspired by my own lack mentality and the lack mentality from the people around me. Misery became our currency, when really it’s what I called “a slow, subtle suicide,” (Authentikei 2018). The main points of my article were:

  • Dropping expectations will help you more in the long run. (This doesn’t mean lower your expectations. It means let go of the unrealistic ones that stress you out and don’t force yourself to be positive. Instead, face your reality objectively.)
  • You are not worthless, useless, shameful, or horrible. You have value that supersedes your monetary and/or social status.
  • If the dis-ease is present, face it. You do not deserve to suffer.
  • Taking care of your needs is a process. There is no get-rich-quick or solve-all-problems solution, but every step you take towards what you need is evidence of hope.
  • Replace satisfying those impulsive acts with appreciating what you have and investing in that by applying what you have to your reality.

Listening to Jen Sincero’s book has made me ecstatic. While listening to the audiobook, I would be yelling “YES! FINALLY SOMEONE GETS IT!” out loud. I’ve already disturbed some family members, especially those who overheard the narrator saying “you’re one powerful motherfucker” while I was listening to it in the car, but Sincero’s book is ANYTHING but disturbing. It’s a fucking wake-up call. It’s something I’ve wanted to scream for so long. It’s made me wake up over things I thought I understood but really didn’t.

I’d like to share a few of her quotes that have hit me HARD so far:

“The walls of your comfort zone are lovingly decorated with your lifelong collection of favorite excuses.” 

“What comes out of your mouth comes into your life.” 

“Time wasted rationalizing the mediocre could be time spent creating the magnificent.”

“When you don’t investigate what’s going on with your words, thoughts, and beliefs, you risk stumbling through life on autopilot.” 

“Money is only a tool. It will take you wherever you wish, but it will not replace you as the driver.” 

“There is no lack of things to be grateful for if you remember to pay attention.” 

“You can choose to be a victim to your circumstances or take responsibility for how you choose to perceive them.” 

There is such a big difference between agreeing with these statements and actually living these statements. I would add so many more, but I’ll end up copying and pasting the whole book. Her book reminds me of the last paragraph in the “Poor Application of Support and Resources” section of my article:

Challenge the Illusion: Challenge the lack mentality with a mentality of abundance and gratitude. What do you have and how can you apply that to help you in the present moment? If you find it doesn’t satisfy all of your problems, address how what you have helps with one or a few of the issues. That counts.”

I want to address a slight difference between myself and Sincero. When I wrote this article, I was still perceiving money and being rich in general as something that wasn’t that important in life (even though I do financial abundance spells almost every month). I was fine with receiving money, but I never felt comfortable loving money. Loving money was the equivalent of greed. Yeah, it’s not. Sincero describes money as not just our currency that makes the world go round, but it’s also a type of energy flowing throughout the universe reminding us we have a right to be wealthy and enjoy it. You’ll only be greedy if you choose to be greedy. Some of us have very generous and philanthropic ideas that we would love to make into reality if we had the funding. Sincero encourages the reader throughout to constantly keep in mind of all the awesomeness you can do with money (which doesn’t all have to be philanthropic, by the way. Treat yourself is definitely a thing too and can be harmless act without being greedy).

So when I look back at my article, yes her and I address the “lack mentality” in very similar ways, but I must say, she’s taken it a step further and exalted the abandonment of the “lack mentality” to a place of complete badassery.

I have to share one more quote from her:

“Your heart is the most powerful muscle in your body. Do what it says.”

Seriously, either buy or listen to this book right now.

Try out Audible. This would be a great first pick.

On Chnoubis and Gnosticism

A while ago I wrote the article “Six Uncommon Magical Symbols“, but there’s more to Chnoubis than I realized. If you take a chance to read my article, it’s a short list of mystical symbols and a brief description of their meanings and associations.

According to SymbolDictionary.net, Chnoubis is: “an Egyptian Gnostic solar icon, found most often on gnostic gems, and amulets for protection against poison and disease. It is a composite figure with the head of a lion and the body of a serpent, usually with seven rays emanating from the head, sometimes, with the twelve zodiacal signs. Chnoubis is an aspect of the Gnostic Demiurge, Yaldabaoth, and is associated with Abraxas. Images of Chnoubis are most often found inscribed on gnostic gems, small talismans made from semi-precious stone, that date from the first century onward,” (2012).

In my article, I missed key points about this being an Egyptian Gnostic icon and not really a Christian one, which I’ll have fixed in the article soon. I thought Chnoubis may have come from Christian or at least Judeo-Christian belief due to the icon being associated with Yaldabaoth from “the Apocryphon of John and Pistis Sophia and the Gospel of Judas” and Abraxas who, although questionable origins with the Greeks and Egyptians, has been linked to Christianity as well and is known to have had a place in heaven before he fell.

But what’s more interesting about this symbol is the concept of the demiurge. As I said in my article, “serpents were a sign of healing and enlightenment and are often demonized because of their link to Christian mythology’s interpretation of the devil,” (Authentikei 2019). The serpent having the head of a lion can be up to so many interpretations, but the common terms that pop up are “knowledge”, “poison”, and “protection”, which is why we’ll often run into the Judeo-Christian stories about El or Yahweh creating the universe and scolding Adam and Eve. However, we should turn back to Gnosticism regarding this symbol because the Chnoubis being connected to Yaldabaoth from the Apocryphon recognizes this being as an angel and a chaotic creator. Naturally we’ll think of Satan in the Garden of Eden, which I also mentioned. So is Yaldabaoth Yahweh, Satan, both, or neither? Whichever it is, the description of this demiurge only scratches the surface of the underlying meaning of the Chnoubis.

From Gnostic Warrior:

“The important thing to remember with the story of Yaldabaoth is that it (he and she) is an artificially created life form said to be a lion-faced serpent, with its eyes were like lightning fires which flash that was on a throne surrounded by a blood and no one of the immortal ones could see it. He becomes the Archon (Ark-ON or Spark-On) of the human race. The word archon is composed of the words Ark and On. Ark meaning a conduit of energy that is the Hu-Man sacred ark, or ark of the testimony, represents the original spark of divinity and knowledge that gave us Sophia or wisdom.”

Gnostic Warrior – Yaldabaoth

I’m not going to write out a whole research paper here, but I just think it’s interesting that this symbol in particular has more to do with life, death, and rebirth (which is how I describe Abraxas) more than anything else. It’s not just a symbol of healing and enlightenment. It’s linked to creation and destruction, a power we often consider belonging to just the divine, but a power we exercise daily. That’s healing and enlightening in itself, I feel. And funny enough, the “archon” or “spark” is a very important concept in my novel. I love how everything comes together. #Synchronicity

If you know more about this symbol or the other symbols in my article, please common.

Crystals and Gemstones for Chakras and Self-Care [Masterpost]

Here it is. A list of the best starter crystals and gemstones that can help with opening up chakras. If you fancy crystal healing as a way to get you in the mentality for better self-care, I hope this helps.

Root Chakra – Grounding

Sacral Chakra – Emotional Health

Solar Plexus Chakra – Self-Esteem

Heart Chakra – Self-Acceptance

Throat Chakra – Inner Truth

Third Eye Chakra – Psychic Ability

Crown Chakra – Inner Peace

I want to be self-employed full-time

I have a good foundation to build on…now it’s just time to build.

My mission is to have a platform where we are encouraged to think more critically about life; where we prioritize our personal philosophies, strive for self-fulfillment, and be in harmony with the truth of reality rather than be passive to our self-destructive acts. Art, philosophy, and metaphysics are the foundation for this mission with an emphasis on understanding and mastering the self. After transforming the inner reality, we can change the external reality in honesty, integrity, and accountability.

Authentikei is based on the word authentic and the Japanese character “Kei”, which can mean “blessing”, “wise”, or “respect” depending on how it’s written (Japanese Kanji can have multiple meanings). It’s my artist title to remind myself to strive for authenticity for the sake of respecting myself and always being in a state of mastery. This is what I want to promote through my own creative projects and become influential enough to encourage others to do the same, but, of course, they’re encouraged to be their own authentic self rather than an imitation. More than anything, understanding the truth of one’s uniqueness requires an acceptance for differences in perspective and how those differences may harmonize or clash. So, no false positivity.

I want to encourage a practical acceptance of reality where we act accordingly and not project our actions and thoughts on others thus pressuring them to reach an unreachable expectation. I hope we’ll become more familiar with our mistakes and flaws, give ourselves time to process the difficulties and pangs in life in our own healthy and productive ways. Philosophy and art can help with that more than anything, I feel. Metaphysics gets in the mix of that in particular ways.

So yeah, that’s my goal, or my brand rather. The next step is to keep building and nurturing the seeds I’ve already planted. Let’s see where it goes.

Leadership Terrifies Me

It’s not because of the responsibility that could be asked of me. My whole life has been driven by being responsible.

It’s not because of the expectations others could place on me when in this position. It used to be strenuous for me, but I have learned how to deal with that in a much better way.

It’s not because of the workload, because I’m a hard worker and very good at self-management.

It’s the power. It’s always been the power. It’s always been the fact that I have the ferocity to crush those who get in my way even though deep inside I’m terrified and guilt-ridden over the long-term damage I’ve done; the kind of damage where karmic forces may even think they have their work cut out for them. I can destroy, but I often embrace power when I’m creating, where I’m building up instead of tearing down. I’m not saying leadership is being that person who tears others down, but it can certainly seem that way living in a world like this one. The truth is that sometimes a leader has to destroy, release, let go, banish, terminate, the list goes on. Power creates and destroys; it’s a cyclical system none of us can get away from. So, I think I’m someone who favors creating and has always feared destroying.

And that needs to stop. Destruction and creation are both necessary forces. They are in harmony, like life and death. Also like life and death, life gets the more positive associations and death gets the negative because loss and distance hurts. Destruction is associated with negativity if it’s destroying something we’re lovingly attached to, but we rarely think about how creation can be negative and destruction can be positive. The creation of a system that brings suffering is something most of us aspire to destroy. If we successfully destroy that system, we have a platform, a blank slate, to create something new and with that creation comes constant reformation and evolution.

So knowing this…why would I fear that power? Why would I fear such natural forces? Probably due to my limitations and fears of the unknown. I don’t want to be the cause of anyone’s suffering, but I have brought pain to others. I have to accept that and be accountable. “Never to have suffered is to have never been blessed,” is one of my favorite quotes from Edgar Allan Poe. Accountability and enlightenment is the blessing within suffering. Some people may have thought the blessing to be healing, but I personally feel it’s the transparency that accountability provides and the empowerment enlightenment brings.

The power that comes with leadership has always terrified me. Why would I fear such a blessing?