The Rot – Dark/Gothic/Horror Poetry [Explicit]

It’s a pit or a grave.
Whichever, I tend to stay
when the sorcery of love dances
on my corpse day by day.

But something died
and love isn’t necromancy.
Eleven ounces of flesh
rotting, barely breathing.

Many tried to revive her.
I welcome them to the grave
of a lost cause, damaged goods,
a bleak, paradoxical save.

Faint beats of my flesh
responding to a loving touch,
but a kind of suicide captures her
because she’s never enough.

“Would you fucking try?” I ask,
“Would you bleed so I can breathe again?”
She’ll bleed herself dry, drown my eyes,
to assert her choice for death.

She wants to die with the lost love,
though it’s not so lost on cosmic paths.
Stars confirm love’s sweet blisses,
its harshness, its beauty, its wraths.

I plead for more beats; she rots,
resenting me six feet under
because I drank poisoned beliefs
of shallow loves, faux thunder,

an alluring ether seeking prey,
necrophiliacs raping my weak-beating flesh.
Perhaps I’m the abuser, the poison shame,
for demanding her strength in weakness.

Am I the sickness? Am I the rot?
Yes, I’m deepening the grave,
barely trying to leave, not taking her with me
though she whispers, “I don’t want to stay.”

But we stay. We rot. We bleed.
We concede. We cycle. We mourn.
At a loss for a remedy, though considering necromancy,
I’m unsure, dear heart, you’ll ever be reborn.

How have I done this to you?
How have I done this to myself?
Love was once our native currency.
Now I’m convinced she poisons our wealth.

Reoccurring, this poison, this dread,
this seemingly infinite sorrow.
It won’t kill itself or let us die.
It bleeds us–I bleed us–every ‘morrow.

How, how did I get here?
This damning, infinite fear.
Why won’t you leave me,
you mirror so clear?

The rot won’t leave my reflection.

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Need Help Writing Dialogue For Your Novel? Follow These Tips from Jenna Moreci

First, let me just say I LOVE Jenna. Someone shared one of her videos on Tumblr and I just fell in love with the way she broke down her writing tips. She’s very frank and incredibly open-minded. I like watching a video from her or other authortubers before I jump into my own novel to get my head in the game. Enjoy!

Also, please consider checking out her book The Savior’s Champion and her other book Eve: The Awakening. I’ve added both to my reading list on Amazon. I’m ready to see her work for myself. FYI if you have Kindle Unlimited, Eve: The Awakening is free to read.

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Tarot Reading – Every Journey Starts With A Single Step

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The Most Beautiful Response to Sleep Paralysis – Photographer Nicolas Bruno

I highly recommend watching the documentary from BBC on photographer Nicolas Bruno, an artist who battles with sleep paralysis and transforms his nightmares into reality. The pieces shown on his Facebook Page and Instagram are absolutely captivating and I think for those of us who have endured sleep paralysis and questioned the mystery around it, you’ll experience an involuntary empathy. When I look at his work, the fear rumbles in my gut. It’s satisfying to see this because, once again, a brave artist reached out about an odd phenomena that many of us link to the supernatural. Now many more of us feel less alone. He’s even willing to contact others who have been through similar experiences.

I wrote an article on sleep paralysis, lucid dreaming, and astral projection as part of my metaphysical research for my upcoming dark science fantasy novel. In the article, I discuss how science and medical studies say one thing about sleep paralysis, but I encourage that we’re not too quick to dismiss the supernatural experience that can mingle with sleep paralysis. After all, lucid dreaming and astral projection have overlapped as well, so what could be happening while your lucid dreaming is still going when you’re awake? In the documentary, Nicolas discusses how his upbringing influenced his view on the supernatural and his sleep paralysis.

One of my favorite elements of Nicolas’s photography is the use of water, which he mentions in the BBC documentary. From a PHLearn interview, he discusses his use of water as psychological symbolism:

“Water, to me, is the unconscious mind or the realm of sleep. Being above the water represents the conscious mind or wakefulness. A lot of my characters are halfway submerged, trapped between the worlds of being asleep or awake. Ominous figures and props protrude from the sleep realm, and the wakeful protagonists within the images generally are tormented or trying to escape. I enjoy depicting the play between the conscious/subconscious mind. The water can also symbolize the suffocating feeling within sleep paralysis, where it almost feels that you are drowning in your own bed.”

From “Transforming Nightmares Into Hauntingly Beautiful Works of Art with Nicolas Bruno” by Jennifer Berube, 2018

Please find Nicolas on his social media accounts and support his work. We need this type of art.

The Metaphysical and Occult Research Page Is Ready

All right. I changed things up and now all of my articles on Vocal.Media will be linked to that page. It’s a work in progress, but I’m happy with the start. More articles are coming. For now…

Please visit the Metaphysical and Occult Research Page here

As for the Anime Archetypes page and the literary terms, I have plans for that. For now, The Anime Archetypes page won’t be present on this site and the literary terms will continue as is.

The Full Moon Helped My Writer’s Block – Change of Plans via Vocal.Media

This is probably going to be one of the most goth-hippie things you’ve read today, but while meditating under the full moon with a black amethyst in hand, I’ve realized that my metaphysical research should be more on my Vocal.Media account and referenced on my website. This will help me financially and build up my platform. I’ve had such horrible writer’s block when it came to articles on Vocal.Media. Even though starting this WordPress blog helped me get some writing in on the daily, it drove me nuts that I was neglecting my writing goals for Vocal.Media. Blogging is natural for me. Article writing takes more planning and organization.

On Vocal.Media, which I feel is a reliable way to gain earnings if you’re willing to put the effort into it, I do my best to write in an informative, but also conversational sort of tone because I want to encourage anyone who comes across my writing to consider the metaphysical world whether it be for fun or in a more serious matter. I wish to write about my topics respectfully and transparently so my audience knows I’m being real with them as I explore these topics myself. There is such a vast paranormal/supernatural community out there and I really want to be a part of it rather than just a quiet outsider. Too many of us have had mystical experiences that we’ve tried to rationally explain, but haven’t yet and I think instead of leaning towards the idea of calling ourselves delusional or freaks, we can have a conversation about it instead. Discussing our experiences can lead to more rational conclusions and coping mechanisms or it can, as us metaphysical lovers like to say, expand our consciousness so we can delve into the unknown or unexplained without being harassed by doubt every day. I still run into people who go through so many things they just want to understand and I think if I were to write more articles about certain types of experiences, like meeting entities from other realms, having visions and dreams that turn out to be prophetic, etc., we’ll all just be more open about it and feel less alone. I know this community is already expanding in a more inclusive manner. I just want to keep the momentum going.

So, this is basically an announcement that the Metaphysical Terms page will soon link to my articles on Vocal.Media and I’ll make sure to announce new articles ASAP.

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A quick note to those of you who connect with the astrological forces out there, Jupiter in retrograde and the full moon in Libra is some very incredible energy right now. It’s a very honest energy. “Dark night of the soul” kind of stuff. Take advantage of it. This energy will help you conquer, or at least face, what is blocking you from your goals and aspirations right now.

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I Found A New Occult Website While Researching A Demon Today

I wanted to share a new discovery today. There’s a website known as Occult World that provides very straightforward information about occult terms, entities, activities, and the like. They also offer courses, but I don’t know too much about that. I wanted to share and save it as a resource. If anyone else is more familiar with this site, you should chat with me.

Research

I was looking into the demon Forcas, or Furas/Foras, because his name came to mind when I was thinking about, actually, stressing about, how I really, really don’t want my mind to lose its sharpness. I’m so insecure about math, my ADHD sometimes convinces me that my reading comprehension is garbage, and I’m convinced that I would be fluent in Japanese by now if my memory had better retention. Foras appeared offering help, but as someone who works with spirits quite a bit, I did some research (as any spirit worker should, I don’t care how experienced you are).

Honestly, he’s pretty chill. Buff as all get out, but overall pretty interesting.

Description of Forcas from The Goetia: “The Thirty-first Spirit is Foras. He is a Mighty President, and appeareth in the Form of a Strong Man in Human Shape. He can give the understanding to Men how they may know the Virtues of all Herbs and Precious Stones. He teacheth the Arts of Logic and Ethics in all their parts. If desired he maketh men invisible, and to live long, and to be eloquent. Hecan discover Treasures and recover things Lost. He ruleth over 29 Legions of Spirits, and his Seal is this, which wear thou, etc.”

Invisibility is a neat bonus. Unfortunately, I don’t think I’ve found anything else about this guy that is beyond this definition. Other sources simply echo the information already provided.

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Will my experiences with him be referenced in my novel series?

Most definitely. I actually have a character in the novel who is an exorcist who partners with demons (for any anime fans, no it’s not like Blue Exorcist) to take care of certain tasks or receive information (actually, maybe I should watch Blue Exorcist again for more inspiration…I don’t know…).

I’ll discuss more in the future…

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