My first novel will be about loss and gain. Death and life. There’s a sweet spot in the middle of those concepts. Progress. Rebirth. It just hit me, at this moment, after shuffling some tarot cards contemplating whether I’m on the right path with my creative projects. It’s representing how I came to recognizing the middle path. I can’t just focus on what I’ve achieved and how I’ve grown. I have to dive deep into the moments of loss, suffering, suffocation, misery, grief, suicidal ideation, homicidal ideation, that deep, deep pain that found art and clung to it so I wouldn’t throw punches at others and myself. That sorrow, that darkness wants to speak. It’s words will overlap with the light because even the light side of my life isn’t the opposite of sorrow. It’s not happiness. It’s the defensive. The protection. The facade that blinds. The ego that smiles. The consciousness that flickered at the sight of certain truths and epiphanies, like realizing light doesn’t erase darkness. Life doesn’t erase death. What was gained doesn’t mean something was lost. My light is a shitty bandaid. My darkness is a soft, cool pool that can either drown me or make me. In my novel, I’ll explain how I found the middle of light and dark through a protagonist that hears the calling like I did. How I took the first step to realizing true power and true healing, the stability and creation of the self, is found in the almost indiscernible median of the conscious and the subconscious, the light and dark, the gains and losses.

My novel is about a life dying. My novel is about taking that first step towards transformation. This is the start of the Spirit Strings series.

My recent article about Faith and Hermeticism has received some good feedback from those knowledgeable of hermeticism. Basically, the article is confusing, poorly worded, and misinformed. I agree. Sometimes you work hard on something and it turns out to not hit the mark. I understand why it didn’t. I wasn’t specific enough and failed at narrowing my topic down to faith specifically. Additionally, I think roping hermeticism into it was a mistake too. I am learning about the hermetic teachings and I thought there was a connection there, but clearly something is off according to audiences that do know hermeticism fairly well. I’ll definitely revise the article, but I’m so incredibly grateful for the feedback. Not only was I reminded of my past mistakes, but now know what to look for in future esoteric research.

If you’d like to confuse yourself and give some feedback, the article is here.

On the plus side, I’m glad my organization of my content was decent enough for my audience to get that I’m addressing that faith is more than it seemed, which led them to question if faith is even a quality of hermeticism. All in all (lol) revision is needed. Thank you to all who read.

Many thanks from the occult/hermeticism discord sever that gave feedback. You didn’t hold back, and I’m very grateful for that.